27.5.09

somebody please surprise me with these..









http://www.swarovski.com/Web_US/en/91115/promotion/The_Lovlots.html

25.5.09

不要做一只鳖

要学着

对事情不要太执着

问题就不会那么多

何必要庸人自扰呢

如果愿意想开

其实一秒钟就能够想开了

不是吗?

Monday monday monday. everyday is the same.

v2 might b rite. i'm already 27. n my resume still sucks. i should just stay put here and wait. even if i might rot and disintegrate here. just to build up the resume. wait and see. i need alot of patience here.

i'm not motivated and i don't know how to distract my mind fr these. but i know i should stop doing certain things such as drinking because they're unhealthy. exercise more because i wan to keep fit. eat proper meals so my appetite don't go downhill. think more positively because afterall i know who is in control.

so dear friends, please help me to keep these things in check.

spent quite alot recently on the new cam n as such neglected the big cam. bought my bike but still waiting to collect it in june. and still a few more things on my list of to-buys. no travel plans is no good in this case because i juz cant seem to properly save up n not tink abt the big ticket items. bleah.

22.5.09

i like these two

那些已经犯过的错误,有一些是因为来不及,有一些是因为刻意躲避,更多的时候是茫然地站到了一边。我们就这样错了一次又一次,却从不晓得从中汲取教训,做一些反省。

多少次又多少次,回忆把生活划成一个圈,而我们在原地转了无数次,无法解脱。总是希望回到最初相识的地点,如果能够再一次选择的话,以为可以爱得更单纯。

21.5.09

what a damned fucked up thursday. one after another. i hate my job. freaking hate it.

then sometin else made me feel worst. argh.

bleah.

20.5.09

keep running

im amazed at myself for running ten rounds on the tracks ytd. i usuali only managed about 4-5rounds at the stadium, or 1-2 rounds ard my estate. n i used to hate running during sch days. it was only after i've moved here and then i started jogging ard the neighbourhood. i finally can feel how a jog helps to relax ur mind and body at the same time.. of coz after the initial lazyness felt at the start of every run. just need to keep running.

and then i spent the nite watching a badminton game on one of the sports chn with dad. btw the two amazing men fr CN and MY. CN won. he looked good wet in his sleeveless top sticking all ard his body and his pecs r so visible. hahaha.. ok, wat i wanted to say is, i tink the only connection btw me n my dad was badminton. as we watched, jiayi was beside us playing with her new racket. n she kept askin my dad if she played correctly. it reminded me of hw my dad started teaching me when i was way younger at five?..n i played all six years in pri..but too bad i decided to give up the cock for a bigger ball in sec sch. hmm. was it ever since then we had lost the connection btw us, the common tin abt us.. the father and daughter tin.. was he ever present at any of my matches then? i lost all my precious memories of the past.

but wat is amazing is my badminton buddy is still beside me as my childhood fren till today.

27 is so near. sobz. sobz. sobz.

Don't look back; instead, keep looking forward!

Today's Verse 1: Proverbs 4:25
"Keep looking straight ahead, without turning aside." --CEV[4]


Today's Verse 2: Philippians 3:13b
"But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead..." --NIV[1]


Today's Message
I have caught myself saying it on occasions. "Why did I ever do this?" "Why didn't I ever think of that?" "Why did I do this instead of that?" "If I only would have listened..." "If only I would have..."

The truth is plain and clear: yesterday is gone and we can't do anything about it. What's done is done. What you and I *can* do now is decide wisely today for a better tomorrow --understanding that God is more than willing (and faithful) to work on our side in whatever circumstances we find ourselves.

During their desert journey to the promised land, the Israelites were always finding a reason to complain and ask these same questions concerning Egypt. And God showed them in many ways how much He loved and cared for them. However, they would only complain and grumble some more, to the extent that God was forced to judge them and let that generation die without ever having access to the promised land.

Let us learn from their example and keep our focus on today and the future God has for us. For whatever we choose to speak and do this very day will ultimately affect our tomorrow --all the way through eternity. Never lose sight of that.


Today's Prayer
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for today, a unique and awesome gift we call "the present." Teach me to value each and every day in such a way that the choices I make be in total agreement with Your plan and purpose for my life. I thank You for the beautiful tomorrow You have set before me, and I pray and rejoice with an attitude of joy and gratitude. In Jesus' precious name, amen.

17.5.09

fr someone's blog..

"I don’t know why I enjoy old memories like this, or why they affect me so much. Maybe because I’m an introvert. It’s said that introverts go back to memories for stimulation. I’ve always found a distinct pleasure in reminiscing about old times, when I may have been more damaged, but more innocent too. It’s like innocence is the only thing you have no control over losing. As you grow older, you learn more about how the world works, and a once naïve optimism is replaced with the cold, hard realities of life.

You think of how nice it would be to have the mind of a child again, when your biggest worry was what to wear and whether she likes you, but you can never go back."

15.5.09

Happiness is..


when you catch a prawn.. or two..

=)

8.5.09

tgiFri

it's just diff when u hav someone. things u talk about, plans in the future, and etc.

im glad they found theirs. im glad i don feel that out tonite. n im oso glad to knw they're my dear sisters who are like what ppl say, 'stars that shine in the nite, sometimes u don see them, but they're always there for you'. ppl who are so close, yet they don expect, and they love you more than their other halves. or so i believe. truly.

wine plus beer on a thurs nite. near wkend so its alrite i suppose. i keep biting my tongue on the cab ride home so i keep myself awake. i guess it's true the body numbs everywhere with alcohol. coupled with an exhausted body and tired mind. gee. but dan there's still this craving to inhale that smelly fag whenever one is high on alcohol. ah.

why do we need to hope? life is make up of choices. if it's within ur control, why hope? just do it, aint it supposed to be like that? pray and it'll happen. hope and nothing will ever. so, just do it. why not?

7.5.09

game for life

erm, it was only recently that i've stepped into a game cafe to play. and honestly wasnt very enthusiastic even for the first time. mainly just a meet-up with the ex-cols to catch up. tat was on labour day afternoon.

we reluctantly agreed to try out a few games after rejecting some others which the person recommended(which requires brain cells to play). so we played about 3 games tat day. let's see if my memory is still intact. there was this monopoly deal(?) card game where we can snatch ppty fr other players and demand rent fr them. there was this other banquet game where we each play a different character in secret and try to reach our objective to win while tryin to either kill others by making them full or prevent them fr winning. n oh the most fun game tat day was the donut game where we hav to stack same color donuts tog while not exceeding a max of 13 for each chain, and the person with the most donuts on hand will lose (die fr obesity).

last nite was another ex-col meetup and we went to another of such cafe. it's cleaner and cosier. no kitchen smell which is gd. we requested for brainless games as well and mainly only reaction games r brainless. so we played ugly dolls whereby we will snatch the cards whenever 3 of the same dolls appeared, and if two persons snatch the same card whoever shouts uglyx3 fastest will get it. As a result, we were quite rough n noisy and in the end we decided it was too unglam to play even though we're the only table occupied. we wasted our time on another game called imaginiff which actuali requires some knowledge of each player personally b4 u can guess correctly. so i lose out becoz i oni knw a few of them =p n so the nx game was the best! its called the big taboo. a combination of pictionary and the taboo game (but i didnt play b4 though). it was the crux of the nite! coz there was this purple monster called bendy bob (i juz googled it) and one of the categories is to use this monster to act out the word for the team to guess! so funny! dan there is the drawing part which i luv as well, and another two categories are the verbal taboo style. so the nx time i step into such a cafe, i tink i can play this game all day long,n oh the donut game. n forget abt the rest. but i guess oni for such ex-cols gathering dan there'll be enuff players. since i don usuali hang out in big grps. hmm.

no pics.. but just to show the purple monster. i tink its v cute when its doin all the actions we force onto it. =p at one pt i laughed till i teared. ok i was the most exaggerating one. we all need a little humour.

5.5.09

always true~

有多久没见你 以为你在那里
原来就住在我心底 陪伴着我的呼吸
有多远的距离 以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长 回头就看到你

过去让它过去 来不及
从头喜欢你 白云缠绕着蓝天
如果不能够永远走在一起
也至少给我们怀念的勇气 拥抱的权利
好让你明白 我心动 的痕迹

总是想再见你 还试着打探你 消息
原来你就住在我的身体守护我的回忆

~心动~

3.5.09

saturday



after a 20km cycling trip the previous nite, we rewarded ourselves with sinful indulgences. n oh, i like my new sneakers!