i thot the natural disaster faraway doesnt affect me at all .. until i came to work.. n bloomberg is down. means more tedious work to report the thrice daily share pxs.
and dan it was the internet. msn. boo. how dependent on technology are we. to communicate with fellow workin frens.
the entire day of rain yesterday made me fell sick again. argh. no more cough medicine. am super sleepy n drowsy fr a flu pill. cant reali focus on work. though lots to be done.
i hate it when my body fails me. my mind has always been. its hard to keep myself motivated like tat. plus the holiday mood. n everyone else on/going on holidays. but not me..boohooo
bt nonetheless. im gonna enjoy myself here. be it sleeping at home in the coming long wkend. i need more rest i tink.
Christmas was a simple but truly enjoyable time of the year. Of all the years maybe.
The above was typed yesterday in office. But no time to post it up.
stupid bbg is stil down. argh.
Last nite was a crazy nite. After the wine n cheese session with the ppl on top, few of us stayed behind for more wine n chix. From no-no to wine to gulping them down after losing in the games (damn…).. n kfc chix.. the attack of the phlegm is back! Argh!
Serves me rite I know. Bt how often do u get to drink wine on the house n in the office compound?!haha.. n it’s the first time i see this v being high on wine.. wahaha.. plus the funny sides of certain ppl after they r high .. its so unlike the usual serious look at work. N oh .. its gross but we hav to actuali clear up someone’s puke in the pantry area. Eeks.
Mayb I shld pay a visit to my beloved doc again.. 3rd time in 2 wks. When I don fall sick, I can stay healthy for at most 2-3 mths interval. But when I do.. it can last from weeks.. to months.. crap body.
28.12.06
20.12.06
The crux of Christmas is Christ Himself.
this is the song tat keeps me going.. basically im oni listening to the christian songs in my ipod since its first day. isit becoz this is the season to remember Him? not just that.. i have to remind myself that each day passes not for nothing, but for Him. it keeps me going.. i hope it keeps u gg too..
We Are The Reason - Avalon (Joy)
As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love
I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him
He is my reason to live
hear it here.. but this is the older version by the writer himself though.. more classic but i love the avalon version better..
We Are The Reason - Avalon (Joy)
As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live
As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love
I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him
He is my reason to live
hear it here.. but this is the older version by the writer himself though.. more classic but i love the avalon version better..
18.12.06
15.12.06
all about cats
received this pack of 6 mini 'super strong' magnets fr fellow cat-lover in office.. gee..im so blessed with all things cats!
out for some pics taking..
close-up shots
i learnt a new term. this is a calico. cat with patches of color. cutest!
on the same day i received this fr xj's bro aka my financial planner.. it's fr japan..matches my phone hee
n oh, this was received few mths back fr boon.. oso fr japan!! i wanna go japan!!!
out for some pics taking..
close-up shots
i learnt a new term. this is a calico. cat with patches of color. cutest!
on the same day i received this fr xj's bro aka my financial planner.. it's fr japan..matches my phone hee
n oh, this was received few mths back fr boon.. oso fr japan!! i wanna go japan!!!
11.12.06
ramblings... 感觉..
please don be mistaken. what im gonna write here.. is not meant for anione. juz some feelings inside tat was triggered when i see wat's happening in the surroundings. it was once how i felt, only to be pen-ed down sometime later till now.
一段感情里
当其中一方决定不再尽力后
分手也只是迟早的事
与其等待对方先开口
宁愿受伤 也不愿意去伤害他/她
不如把痛苦缩短
短暂的伤害 会比长期活在那拖拖拉拉的感情里好
说出来 是爱他的最后一种表现
爱情 曾经给你力量去接受一切
付出过的 也得到了
让它在最后一份光芒里 化为勇气吧
我们分手吧!!!
on a happier note:
其实 往往我们心里都知道自己最想要的是什么
但 因为周围的人 事 物
让我们的心 动摇了
简单的感觉 混乱的思绪
一切都被复杂化了
所以 我们应该静下来
往心里最深处钻
找回那第一次的感觉
再决定
爱 与被爱
你要的是什么?
一段感情里
当其中一方决定不再尽力后
分手也只是迟早的事
与其等待对方先开口
宁愿受伤 也不愿意去伤害他/她
不如把痛苦缩短
短暂的伤害 会比长期活在那拖拖拉拉的感情里好
说出来 是爱他的最后一种表现
爱情 曾经给你力量去接受一切
付出过的 也得到了
让它在最后一份光芒里 化为勇气吧
我们分手吧!!!
on a happier note:
其实 往往我们心里都知道自己最想要的是什么
但 因为周围的人 事 物
让我们的心 动摇了
简单的感觉 混乱的思绪
一切都被复杂化了
所以 我们应该静下来
往心里最深处钻
找回那第一次的感觉
再决定
爱 与被爱
你要的是什么?
8.12.06
fridays are always shitty becoz of some shitty bank. yea. sounds like it huh.
*breathe in deep*
aniwae. wanted to blog this down since.. beginning of the month? after reading n hearing wat ser's pt of view.
the basis of love/relnship should be God. not passion. nor feelings. nor lust. i have been pondering over it for quite some time. wat does it actuali mean.
n i was reminded of the equilateral triangle relnship. not the normal kind of 三角关系. i was taught abt this few years back in church during some camp i tink.
God is at the top end of the triangle. man n woman is at the bottom two ends.
As man/woman's distance from God narrows, the two slanting sides of the triangle shortens, hence bringing the man n woman closer tog. however, it doesnt work in the opposite way. if the man n woman got closer without getting closer to Him, the equilateral triangle becomes an isosceles triangle.
simply, it means.. in a relnship, with God, it is impt to let him be the basis, the foundation of it. u don start one based on special feelings/chemistry.. or passion.. coz they fade away over time.
this world is not perfect. doesnt mean a christian relnship will make tins easy. i tink it complicate tins even more. compared to a non-christian relnship.. but a christian/non christian mix is as bad.
*breathe in deep*
aniwae. wanted to blog this down since.. beginning of the month? after reading n hearing wat ser's pt of view.
the basis of love/relnship should be God. not passion. nor feelings. nor lust. i have been pondering over it for quite some time. wat does it actuali mean.
n i was reminded of the equilateral triangle relnship. not the normal kind of 三角关系. i was taught abt this few years back in church during some camp i tink.
God is at the top end of the triangle. man n woman is at the bottom two ends.
As man/woman's distance from God narrows, the two slanting sides of the triangle shortens, hence bringing the man n woman closer tog. however, it doesnt work in the opposite way. if the man n woman got closer without getting closer to Him, the equilateral triangle becomes an isosceles triangle.
simply, it means.. in a relnship, with God, it is impt to let him be the basis, the foundation of it. u don start one based on special feelings/chemistry.. or passion.. coz they fade away over time.
this world is not perfect. doesnt mean a christian relnship will make tins easy. i tink it complicate tins even more. compared to a non-christian relnship.. but a christian/non christian mix is as bad.
5.12.06
2.5 yrs. no commitment.
hav grown tired and lazy.
wans to go back but am afraid.
afraid that i will not be able to commit. both time and effort.
most imptly, can i commit my heart totally?i love him. i believe in him. but yet i doubt myself tat i can commit to the church. the ppl. the activities. i know they are all for him. but sometimes i wonder why cant it be juz between me n him?
it should be. its a relnship btw me n him. no other tins shld come in btw. but tat is.. sadly the truth. expectations fr ppl. holy ppl. the pressure is even more tremendous dan from non-believers.
nobody is sure. so, its impt to take the first step. becoz help is there to continue walking after u commit tat first step.
i know all these. but i am still lethargic. yet i dont wan to wait until something bad happens, dan i crawl back to find him.like a baby.
*slap*
no matter wat, Christmas season is near. We should all not forget the meaning of Christmas! the birth of Christ, salvation for all beings! HE saveD us!!
in another aspect of love.. well.. its amazing wat love fr a ger can do to her guy. to make him wan to grow up, mature faster, and be there for her like a man when she needed that security and assurance. on the surface, love is simple. it makes u strong. n wan to breathe everyday juz for him/her. love is sweet, it makes u smile inside ur heart whenever u tink of the times shared btw the two. we all know the side effects of love. lets not tok abt them here becoz it's Christmas season!! hahah.. no matter wat, who can live without love?! be it heartbreaks, happiness or watnots, we r all craving for more!!More fr the right person, at the right time, in the right way!
in short, we shld juz treasure wat we have now. life, including love, is always a give n take situation. yes, give, dan take. note the order. =)
sidenote/: dear frenz, pls forgiv me if i keep forgetin little details of things that were told to me. i dun reali know wats up with me n my mind.. juz couldnt seem to focus on things and on ppl. left in right out. i will remind myself all the time.. to be alive.. awake.. alert. pls help!
hav grown tired and lazy.
wans to go back but am afraid.
afraid that i will not be able to commit. both time and effort.
most imptly, can i commit my heart totally?i love him. i believe in him. but yet i doubt myself tat i can commit to the church. the ppl. the activities. i know they are all for him. but sometimes i wonder why cant it be juz between me n him?
it should be. its a relnship btw me n him. no other tins shld come in btw. but tat is.. sadly the truth. expectations fr ppl. holy ppl. the pressure is even more tremendous dan from non-believers.
nobody is sure. so, its impt to take the first step. becoz help is there to continue walking after u commit tat first step.
i know all these. but i am still lethargic. yet i dont wan to wait until something bad happens, dan i crawl back to find him.like a baby.
*slap*
no matter wat, Christmas season is near. We should all not forget the meaning of Christmas! the birth of Christ, salvation for all beings! HE saveD us!!
in another aspect of love.. well.. its amazing wat love fr a ger can do to her guy. to make him wan to grow up, mature faster, and be there for her like a man when she needed that security and assurance. on the surface, love is simple. it makes u strong. n wan to breathe everyday juz for him/her. love is sweet, it makes u smile inside ur heart whenever u tink of the times shared btw the two. we all know the side effects of love. lets not tok abt them here becoz it's Christmas season!! hahah.. no matter wat, who can live without love?! be it heartbreaks, happiness or watnots, we r all craving for more!!More fr the right person, at the right time, in the right way!
in short, we shld juz treasure wat we have now. life, including love, is always a give n take situation. yes, give, dan take. note the order. =)
sidenote/: dear frenz, pls forgiv me if i keep forgetin little details of things that were told to me. i dun reali know wats up with me n my mind.. juz couldnt seem to focus on things and on ppl. left in right out. i will remind myself all the time.. to be alive.. awake.. alert. pls help!
4.12.06
1.12.06
About En
Location : Singapore
First cry : 15th July
Loves : Rollerblading, Movies, Ktv, Chilling out,My takeshi & lee hom
#mEaNwHiLe*
+ continue seekin that purpose
+ closer to u
+ less late nites/booze
+ more love, more joy, more seriousness n initiative
*Priority travel locations!#
* Eurotrip?
* Japan!!
* Korea - Snow?!!
* Taiwan again!
* getaway to a beach resort
*wat $ can buy#
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- watch
- lasik!
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- new bearings -->haven blade for sooo long.. =(
- jeans,tees, sportswear.. sucker for casual wear
- formal wear too
29.11.06
when im in good mood, i blog.
Haa. im the slowest to post this pic up.. though i was in singapore durin the wkend n both of u r not! haha.. all three happened to be in purple! ser's fav color!! with a pinky christmas tree!! so we became happie not juz becoz we watched Happy Feet that nite. but also becoz of the brainstorming for our pre-christmas celebration!
the other tree inside The Cathay
other pics sitting in my hp now..
the meet-up
our hair looks messy in this.. =p
purple balls in marina
ooh i find this cat in the same sleepin position as the main cat on top!
the other tree inside The Cathay
other pics sitting in my hp now..
the meet-up
our hair looks messy in this.. =p
purple balls in marina
ooh i find this cat in the same sleepin position as the main cat on top!
i realised i am home every tuesday nite. or rather, every nite. caught consecutive episodes of 'Say I do', the chn 8 entertainment show on tues tat help couples propose to each other. saw a few of those gers proposing to their other halves. wow. tremendous courage. n thick enuff skin. hee
it juz goes to show how boring singaporean guys are. so much so tat we gers have to tink of more romantic ways so as to leave a deeper memory inside for as long as it can/shld be. but of coz, exceptions r the few guys who proposed thru this programme. a big clap for that little effort to wan to make tins more memorable n 浪漫 for their halves!
be it guys don know wat is romance, don appreciate it, or know but don wan to show it. u all deserve a big knock on the head. hello, wake up. this ger beside u is oni here now. grab the chance. grab every opportunity tat u have to let her know hw u feel inside. where r all ur guts?! juz show n do wat u wan! wat r u waiting for?! life is too short to wait!
it juz goes to show how boring singaporean guys are. so much so tat we gers have to tink of more romantic ways so as to leave a deeper memory inside for as long as it can/shld be. but of coz, exceptions r the few guys who proposed thru this programme. a big clap for that little effort to wan to make tins more memorable n 浪漫 for their halves!
be it guys don know wat is romance, don appreciate it, or know but don wan to show it. u all deserve a big knock on the head. hello, wake up. this ger beside u is oni here now. grab the chance. grab every opportunity tat u have to let her know hw u feel inside. where r all ur guts?! juz show n do wat u wan! wat r u waiting for?! life is too short to wait!
27.11.06
wat a terrible wk/wkend.
no, nothing bad happened. juz all the thots gg on in my head.
busyness n stress fr work. i dun know really where the stress comes from. tats even worse. fri was totali pissed by C bank and P firm. why does life has to be like tat.. haiz. im juz an innocent 小猫 living in the cruel world.
somebody stop my head fr spinning. the thots r flooding my mind. i cant remember simple tins which nver get out of my head last time. i lost count of dates. i forget abt the little details in life tat matters. i forget abt his love for me. n the meaning he sets out for me to achieve. i feel more dan lost.
no, nothing bad happened. juz all the thots gg on in my head.
busyness n stress fr work. i dun know really where the stress comes from. tats even worse. fri was totali pissed by C bank and P firm. why does life has to be like tat.. haiz. im juz an innocent 小猫 living in the cruel world.
somebody stop my head fr spinning. the thots r flooding my mind. i cant remember simple tins which nver get out of my head last time. i lost count of dates. i forget abt the little details in life tat matters. i forget abt his love for me. n the meaning he sets out for me to achieve. i feel more dan lost.
25.11.06
weekend too short..
these were taken last sat.. got woken up by mom askin me to help take pics of jiayi dancing for her sch performance.. yea i actuali felt the 'responsibility' like a mom not wanting to disappoint her kid. so i went.. despite the slight hangover n headache fr the previous nite of white wine session =p
her looking cheery n happie fr within
spotted me n my cam?!
lookin serious in her dance
some other cute kids
kids love bubbles.. sadly,i already forgotten tat kinda joy
mom and the little devil
that same afternoon shoot..
stray n pups
her looking cheery n happie fr within
spotted me n my cam?!
lookin serious in her dance
some other cute kids
kids love bubbles.. sadly,i already forgotten tat kinda joy
mom and the little devil
that same afternoon shoot..
stray n pups
21.11.06
meow~
hee.. new catty blog skin! all thanks to our dearest darling Minz! Me n serene both got a new personalised blog skin!!
of coz.. as usual.. i didnt even attempt to put on this skin myself. for fear that i might lose or mess up everything. still need some time to explore ard this new template though. i know nothing abt html.
ok time to end the day. time reali flies. everyday goes by juz like tat. ppl are gg away for christmas. australia, hk, london, japan.. suddenli feel the emptiness. like there's nothing to look forward to. hate the stagnancy. hate the random thoughts. somebody bring me away.
of coz.. as usual.. i didnt even attempt to put on this skin myself. for fear that i might lose or mess up everything. still need some time to explore ard this new template though. i know nothing abt html.
ok time to end the day. time reali flies. everyday goes by juz like tat. ppl are gg away for christmas. australia, hk, london, japan.. suddenli feel the emptiness. like there's nothing to look forward to. hate the stagnancy. hate the random thoughts. somebody bring me away.
i wanna go away...
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11.11.06
Caught 'A good year'
it was rather encouraging.. to see that he gave up his good deal in the bankin job..the life he was so used to.. for the love of his life. to retreat to the countryside. n live the rest of their lives together. how sweet.
but here, how many of us would dare to do that. the many $100Ks that we would lose out if we choose an option like tat. n we lose out on the one and only opportunity in our entire life. be it an opportunity to experience life somewhere else, or juz simply to find the love of our life.
that's life. though we only live it once. most of the times we dare not do things that would hav greatly changed our lives if we hav chosen otherwise.
rainy sat.. with bad headache. n a melancholic feel.
it was rather encouraging.. to see that he gave up his good deal in the bankin job..the life he was so used to.. for the love of his life. to retreat to the countryside. n live the rest of their lives together. how sweet.
but here, how many of us would dare to do that. the many $100Ks that we would lose out if we choose an option like tat. n we lose out on the one and only opportunity in our entire life. be it an opportunity to experience life somewhere else, or juz simply to find the love of our life.
that's life. though we only live it once. most of the times we dare not do things that would hav greatly changed our lives if we hav chosen otherwise.
rainy sat.. with bad headache. n a melancholic feel.
9.11.06
everyday is like a mad rush. fr the time i step into office, to the time i step out for lunch n back.. and then till the sky turns dark. i don get to count every hour like before. some say its good. but i don like time to fly past me without me noticing. ok mayb tat doesnt apply to work. provided i can finish my stuff on time, that is. but my monthly credit report isnt halfway done yet. n im always kept busy with other stuff. tink i deserve a big clap to myself coz i did 3 loans in an afternoon! phew! despite a lot of cokups here n there becoz of the stupid banks/ers. opps.
i just hope their quarterly board paper nitemare be gone soon. dan they'll feel better n so will i. dan she will hav time to entertain my qns. wahaha
*in stress mode*
yawnz..............
now, wats there to look forward to for the remaining 1.5mths of 2006? christmas? New year? where n when shall i embark on my next escapade? if only money's not the problem...
i just hope their quarterly board paper nitemare be gone soon. dan they'll feel better n so will i. dan she will hav time to entertain my qns. wahaha
*in stress mode*
yawnz..............
now, wats there to look forward to for the remaining 1.5mths of 2006? christmas? New year? where n when shall i embark on my next escapade? if only money's not the problem...
7.11.06
work occupies time, but not the emptiness within..
dinner wasnt a simple affair. mayb i shldnt hav came back to join. felt rather 'extra' . hmm..
work is.. givin me severe headaches these 2 days. real bad ones. n a big pimple on the forehead. eyes felt so strained throughout the day too. more of such days to come..
i duno how i managed to came up with all these while workin.. goes to show how much i couldnt get myself to focus totally on work. but anyway..
work is.. givin me severe headaches these 2 days. real bad ones. n a big pimple on the forehead. eyes felt so strained throughout the day too. more of such days to come..
i duno how i managed to came up with all these while workin.. goes to show how much i couldnt get myself to focus totally on work. but anyway..
i wan someone who is/will/can...
cheer me up when im feelin down..
read me a scripture b4 i go to bed..
give me a motivating quote b4 i go to work
share my emotions.. or simply, be there.
sing a song with me.. i love duets.
stand tall with me.. so that i don look 'overgrown'
watch a movie n laugh/cry with me
hear my problems in life..in work.. even if he cant solves them.. at least shower me love in another way to make me forget my sorrows
whom i can share his problems.. be there for him whenever he feels a moment of weakness, i will lend my shoulder. the guy doesnt always have to be the tougher one..
whom he can be proud of having me in his life. =D vice versa
shares some time with me, no matter how busy our lives are..
love being together yet able to share our own lives with other frenz
drink with me.. not necessary get as high as me.. so long as he's there to make sure i get home safe n sound
pray with me.. giving thanks n being thankful for having each other
bring me back to church n worship together
blade with me.. not necessarily faster but as fast
walk with me.. in malls, in parks, in another country
bring me to trips..experience sometin diff together
star/moon-gaze with me..
love cats as much as i do
drive me around..or gimme a car, i'll take the wheel.
lend his shoulders when i feel tired
joke with me
understand why i do certain things, even if not, gives me moral support
watch a movie at home with me..
give a warm hug whenever i needed one..
now.. is it that hard?
give a warm hug whenever i needed one..
now.. is it that hard?
5.11.06
thank god.
freakin 12 stitches! on her forehead. it happened again when im not home. is tat a blessing or wat. coz i might juz freak out if i were to see the blood pouring out. n her crying like nobody's biz. my heart would hav juz cracked on the spot. haiz.
didi fell fr his bike n hit his head on a curb at the busstop few mths back. 5 stitches. and today , jiayi fell while running n playin with him at home. it happened juz few hrs after i left home. n mom's not at home.have the cheek to call me n ask me to rush down to KK to take a look as she is still in her fuckin mahjong session. FUCK big time. i refused. i know all i can do is to pray in my heart tat she'll be alright. pray for healing. i went on to blade. the worrying was gone.
exercise is a good way to.. make ur initially upset mood, a little lighter. or mayb it's the beach. the sea, the breeze and the sun tat make the worries all go away.
i came back home, saw a smile on her face. sense of relief. though the bandage was.. little scary. couldnt imagine hw the wound would look like. don dare to look too. i still remember how didi's stitches look like. n how shan oso freak out when i show her the pic. eeks.
busy and stressful days ahead. body aching. bt great wkend i would say. simple but blessed.
didi fell fr his bike n hit his head on a curb at the busstop few mths back. 5 stitches. and today , jiayi fell while running n playin with him at home. it happened juz few hrs after i left home. n mom's not at home.have the cheek to call me n ask me to rush down to KK to take a look as she is still in her fuckin mahjong session. FUCK big time. i refused. i know all i can do is to pray in my heart tat she'll be alright. pray for healing. i went on to blade. the worrying was gone.
exercise is a good way to.. make ur initially upset mood, a little lighter. or mayb it's the beach. the sea, the breeze and the sun tat make the worries all go away.
i came back home, saw a smile on her face. sense of relief. though the bandage was.. little scary. couldnt imagine hw the wound would look like. don dare to look too. i still remember how didi's stitches look like. n how shan oso freak out when i show her the pic. eeks.
busy and stressful days ahead. body aching. bt great wkend i would say. simple but blessed.
29.10.06
tats all i did this long weekend.. sleep mostly..haha
The huge cat i saw on sat morning at tampines
haha super cute!
headed to sentosa dan.. skyride up
place where we played the luge
caught the sunset
and some kids playing at the small fountain
atmosphere was not bad..
the singer
keyboard player.. she played at lee hom's concert too..
the sitting area
wat went into our tummy..
*clap clap*
haha super cute!
headed to sentosa dan.. skyride up
place where we played the luge
caught the sunset
and some kids playing at the small fountain
atmosphere was not bad..
the singer
keyboard player.. she played at lee hom's concert too..
the sitting area
wat went into our tummy..
*clap clap*
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