Be away in prague for the next five days.. may I see snow! but yet not freeze myself! ha
God bless us with a smooth trip..
nite nite ppl.. Happy welcoming 2008 in advance!!! Enjoy!
25.12.07
Rejoice!!
December 25, 2007
Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.
Luke 2:11
Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.
Luke 2:11
21.12.07
i might hav become rudolph the reindeer in this cold.
i think i almost froze myself last nite at the london eye. or mayb my fingers got too frozen i wont knw if they're cut off accidentally or wat. fucking cold. arGH. i think i need new gloves!!!! send tat pair over will u, pig? hahaha.. gonna be on the lookout for better n thicker gloves if not i think i'll probably freeze myself in prague nx wk. n the cashmere long john doesnt quite keep the cold on the legs too. wth. i need more!!
well london eye looks different in winter and at nite. i still remember last yr when i was here.. it was still rather hot n sunny when u're not under the shade..that is. the tin abt spring is its hot under the sun but once u're in the shade.. u can feel the cold air. bt now winter is plain COLD n i hope i can get used to this temperature soon. if not i'll have to continue hibernating the same amount of hours or more for the given number of hrs outside in that windy cold. bless me. i actually canot remember myself trying to appreciate the beauty of the Eye at nite though it was a foggy nite. it was beautiful but i guess i was really too cold. managed to take a few pics though b4 the fingers became numb soon after. ok pics..
20.12.07
Farewell Photos at Airport
http://picasaweb.google.com/milkdew/Dec172007FarewellAirport
helo..pix here .. so i don hav to try to bump into u guys at unearthly hour on msn to send. ha.can download pics in full size though u all might need to download this program first to view? let me know..
helo..pix here .. so i don hav to try to bump into u guys at unearthly hour on msn to send. ha.can download pics in full size though u all might need to download this program first to view? let me know..
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ... I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:35,38-39
Romans 8:35,38-39
19.12.07
loved
to all who were there to send me off.. thanks very much. the thought n action is very much appreciated.. n to those whose thoughts were with me.. im very glad already.. hee..hugs missed due to flight delay or for wateva reason will be gotten back someday i hope.
the flight was smooth. i tink i slept more dan half of the journey. ha.
n london here is very very cold.. mayb i'll need time to adjust to it.. but i tink its reali fuckin cold juz walkin outside for few mins. my face feels like its turnin into ice n cracking! n the head inside feels constricted giving me a splitting headache juz now. fingertips are cold as usual despite wearing gloves.. all on the journey back fr the airport. ah.. n i hibernated for hours in bed straight after.. n more after dinner. tat explains why im bloggin at this time. bt worry not, with my ability to sleep non stop i'll sure get over the jet lag. ha.
to moo/shan/xj/rw/qw.. thanks for seeing me off with a hug!
pardon me frens.. be away fr home for a while. not sure how long/short. but till then..
i'll b back a better person, i hope. regardless.
13.12.07
12.12.07
8.12.07
27.11.07
Rubber band effect.
Just days ago, your sweetie was holding you in his arms, telling you how special you are, and how much he loves you. Now three days have gone by and he hasn’t even called! You may even share the same bed and yet you feel like he doesn’t even know that you’re there! Why does it seem like he has you up on a pedestal one moment, and at other times, you feel like you’re last on his list? Sometimes it feels like feast or famine when it comes to getting his attention… Is this some version of male PMS?
Absolutely not; although it really can feel like it! This is actually a very normal process that most men go through in intimate relationships. Called the “rubber band” or the male intimacy cycle, it’s when a man vacillates between being close to his partner and pulling away. Men do this for many reasons. The most important reason is to connect with their more masculine side and to focus on the activities that make them a good provider and partner. While this is a normal, and natural, part of all healthy relationships, it is also very confusing to women. In fact, according to the women who visit MarsVenus.com, it is the biggest source of frustration and pain in their relationships.
Why do men need to pull away?
After experiencing the closeness and intimacy of a partnership, the “we” state, men need to regain their sense of self with the “me” state. After that relationship pause he is ready to experience more intimacy. For most men, intimacy is like an all-you-can-eat buffet. They experience it, enjoy it and then become full. They need time and space to feel hungry again. In healthy relationships, men do not pull away out of anger or frustration about their relationship. If your partner is pulling away out of anger, or is simply avoiding you, there is likely something else going on. Also, rubber banding does not happen when a couple is newly in a relationship. This cycle evolves over time. If he is pulling away early on in the relationship, there are likely other issues affecting his interest that may or may not be related to you.
Reactions by women that may push men away further:
Unfortunately, this cycle can be quite upsetting to a woman. They wonder, "Is it me? Did I do something wrong? Does he still love me?" These painful thoughts often cause women to chase their partner demanding an explanation,“Why haven’t you called me?” or “What’s wrong?” When a woman reacts to the rubber band by chasing, it can cause a man to pull away even more- perhaps stretching until the rubber band breaks. He may feel pressured by concerns that his partner doesn’t trust him, or even that he is incapable of making her happy.
Other times, women convince themselves that it's “wrong” to contact their partner; that they must refrain from even talking, and that whoever talks first loses. Of course, while they are determined not to fold, they are also waiting by the phone, checking their voice mail, checking their e-mail or checking that lump in bed lying beside them for signs of life.
There are so many confusing messages out there to women. If you find yourself in this situation, here are a few things to remember:
1. This cycle is a normal pattern for men- he’s not playing with you. Every woman knows how wonderful it is to see your sweetie after some time apart. His heart feels that for you whenever he pulls away and it’s a positive experience. Let him go… and trust that he will come back.
2. While he’s regaining his sense of self, maybe this would be a good time to regain yours as well. Instead of waiting and worrying, why not visit with some girlfriends? Catch up on your reading. Garden. Meditate. Get a pedicure. Enjoy your life.
3. You are allowed to make contact but try to speak his language when you do. One idea is to ask him for information. Say something like, “Remember that movie you were telling me about? What was the name of that again? I was thinking of renting it.” Appeal to his sense of being the expert by asking for his help or advice.
Absolutely not; although it really can feel like it! This is actually a very normal process that most men go through in intimate relationships. Called the “rubber band” or the male intimacy cycle, it’s when a man vacillates between being close to his partner and pulling away. Men do this for many reasons. The most important reason is to connect with their more masculine side and to focus on the activities that make them a good provider and partner. While this is a normal, and natural, part of all healthy relationships, it is also very confusing to women. In fact, according to the women who visit MarsVenus.com, it is the biggest source of frustration and pain in their relationships.
Why do men need to pull away?
After experiencing the closeness and intimacy of a partnership, the “we” state, men need to regain their sense of self with the “me” state. After that relationship pause he is ready to experience more intimacy. For most men, intimacy is like an all-you-can-eat buffet. They experience it, enjoy it and then become full. They need time and space to feel hungry again. In healthy relationships, men do not pull away out of anger or frustration about their relationship. If your partner is pulling away out of anger, or is simply avoiding you, there is likely something else going on. Also, rubber banding does not happen when a couple is newly in a relationship. This cycle evolves over time. If he is pulling away early on in the relationship, there are likely other issues affecting his interest that may or may not be related to you.
Reactions by women that may push men away further:
Unfortunately, this cycle can be quite upsetting to a woman. They wonder, "Is it me? Did I do something wrong? Does he still love me?" These painful thoughts often cause women to chase their partner demanding an explanation,“Why haven’t you called me?” or “What’s wrong?” When a woman reacts to the rubber band by chasing, it can cause a man to pull away even more- perhaps stretching until the rubber band breaks. He may feel pressured by concerns that his partner doesn’t trust him, or even that he is incapable of making her happy.
Other times, women convince themselves that it's “wrong” to contact their partner; that they must refrain from even talking, and that whoever talks first loses. Of course, while they are determined not to fold, they are also waiting by the phone, checking their voice mail, checking their e-mail or checking that lump in bed lying beside them for signs of life.
There are so many confusing messages out there to women. If you find yourself in this situation, here are a few things to remember:
1. This cycle is a normal pattern for men- he’s not playing with you. Every woman knows how wonderful it is to see your sweetie after some time apart. His heart feels that for you whenever he pulls away and it’s a positive experience. Let him go… and trust that he will come back.
2. While he’s regaining his sense of self, maybe this would be a good time to regain yours as well. Instead of waiting and worrying, why not visit with some girlfriends? Catch up on your reading. Garden. Meditate. Get a pedicure. Enjoy your life.
3. You are allowed to make contact but try to speak his language when you do. One idea is to ask him for information. Say something like, “Remember that movie you were telling me about? What was the name of that again? I was thinking of renting it.” Appeal to his sense of being the expert by asking for his help or advice.
26.11.07
sad sad song
哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走
你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
22.11.07
hmm.. in case some of u are wondering.. n kao-beh-ing abt me gg to do another short trip to hk b4 i leave for ldn.. im reali not tat rich. don hav tat excess cash for a dec trip to hk (being peak season).. but becoz it is a gift n so i'll hav to accept it! n to those whom i told that i cant n don hav the money/time coz i need the cash..n the time to spend with family.. they r still true..! coz im oni juz left with one week now to spend here in dec with fam n those frens whom i haven had a chance to catch up with esp those two buds.. n the exam ppl.. im so so sorry .. but reali, believe me.. i love every one of u. now im simply giving more time back to my old old beloved. ya becoz she whined so much abt being neglected ever since our closer days..years ago?
16.11.07
The last tin I ever wan, is to lose a close fren in my life b4 I leave here.
Misunderstandings unresolved. Physical distance can further sink the friendship.
My close frens are only so much. Losing U means A LOT. U don just make up the proportion. U weigh even more in my heart.
I’ll never forget those times we shared. Of Happiness, and simplicity.
Of coz there were rocky times. 2 major ones which I’ll never forget. One of which, the poles still cant meet. But they died down. Because of the firmness of the foundation the friendship was built upon. Because we know how each other is like. Because there is trust. And the common understanding that, this friendship is for life. Both times I cried so hard, never before for a friend. This very third time, I cried tat particular nite too. Wat’s new? N U being the stronger one, I know u wont shed any. Esp when there’s onli stronger anger and pride within. For me, anger and pride works together, but coupled with a weakness for quarrels and a ‘lost’ feeling in the cant-help-its of relationships and bonding, I let tears fall.
That aside, this post is not to gather compassion. All I wan to say is, I don’t reali knw hw to pamper a ger. Not even a guy. U knw tat as well. U being my mentor most of the times. U knw everytin in me best. Mayb even more dan anyone else beside me. I said my apologies tat very day. I don knw wat else to say if there’s still anger, or even the slightest burning fire inside ur heart. I reali wish I can just pour some water to ease the flame. Or that it will die down someday. Even if it means things will be unsettled when I leave. N I can oni pray tat tins will recover becoz remember how the frenship was established despite our characters being poles apart? How others like to laugh at u and questioning abt why we can hang out for years? How u used to dislike me becoz I ‘ignored’ u once during history class? N my reason was mayb I did answered u but u couldn’t catch my one-word ans? How we can just meet up at a phone call’s away.. hang out for the entire nite at the void deck with our hooch..talking abt anitin and everytin.. Our very first trip to thai after As.. our first thai massage bursting into laughter and hence itchyness.. being dumped into mid-sea fr the banana boat n freaking out coz we both canot swim.. parasailing into the sky like a bird ..getting our first hanna done on our arms..those pure n innocent days. U r right, our smiles back then were lighter.. and of pure joy and happiness. Then it was uni days.. how I was ‘tricked’ into the money-counting course while u got into the money-making biz...n remember how u ditch me in hall for a freaking half year and I was all alone there, in the hidden forest, hiding in the pathetic room, eating my own dinners..? But I can never forget abt the happier half a year before, when we see each other everyday n never get bored (at least for me). Weekly groceries shopping at jp after class, stocking up our food for the week.. initial preparation for our stay in the hall lugging pillows and buckets back fr the mall…machine wash our clothes every week and hanging them tog outside the room, havin our bras stolen becoz we forgot to keep them in over the weekend.. pulling our single beds tog under the fan for some warmth.. body massages we gave each other.. listening to lee hom’s songs while mugging tog.. me strumming on the guitar with the wrong chords but we can stil sing our hearts out late till 4am in the morn, with security guards complaining abt the noise we made..these are oni the little memories left inside of me of the many times we shared in this frenship of almost ten years?
What will be of the future. We have no idea. What I knw is physical distance will grow. Emotional as well. Each being occupied with our own lives. Bt the essence of a friendship is always, not in sight, but still in mind. Like wat ppl say, frens are like stars, oni seen n glowing in the dark. I very well wish that I can stil be one of that star in ur life. No matter how faint n with limited capacity. To be there for u if u ever need my help. Though its always the other way round.
Misunderstandings unresolved. Physical distance can further sink the friendship.
My close frens are only so much. Losing U means A LOT. U don just make up the proportion. U weigh even more in my heart.
I’ll never forget those times we shared. Of Happiness, and simplicity.
Of coz there were rocky times. 2 major ones which I’ll never forget. One of which, the poles still cant meet. But they died down. Because of the firmness of the foundation the friendship was built upon. Because we know how each other is like. Because there is trust. And the common understanding that, this friendship is for life. Both times I cried so hard, never before for a friend. This very third time, I cried tat particular nite too. Wat’s new? N U being the stronger one, I know u wont shed any. Esp when there’s onli stronger anger and pride within. For me, anger and pride works together, but coupled with a weakness for quarrels and a ‘lost’ feeling in the cant-help-its of relationships and bonding, I let tears fall.
That aside, this post is not to gather compassion. All I wan to say is, I don’t reali knw hw to pamper a ger. Not even a guy. U knw tat as well. U being my mentor most of the times. U knw everytin in me best. Mayb even more dan anyone else beside me. I said my apologies tat very day. I don knw wat else to say if there’s still anger, or even the slightest burning fire inside ur heart. I reali wish I can just pour some water to ease the flame. Or that it will die down someday. Even if it means things will be unsettled when I leave. N I can oni pray tat tins will recover becoz remember how the frenship was established despite our characters being poles apart? How others like to laugh at u and questioning abt why we can hang out for years? How u used to dislike me becoz I ‘ignored’ u once during history class? N my reason was mayb I did answered u but u couldn’t catch my one-word ans? How we can just meet up at a phone call’s away.. hang out for the entire nite at the void deck with our hooch..talking abt anitin and everytin.. Our very first trip to thai after As.. our first thai massage bursting into laughter and hence itchyness.. being dumped into mid-sea fr the banana boat n freaking out coz we both canot swim.. parasailing into the sky like a bird ..getting our first hanna done on our arms..those pure n innocent days. U r right, our smiles back then were lighter.. and of pure joy and happiness. Then it was uni days.. how I was ‘tricked’ into the money-counting course while u got into the money-making biz...n remember how u ditch me in hall for a freaking half year and I was all alone there, in the hidden forest, hiding in the pathetic room, eating my own dinners..? But I can never forget abt the happier half a year before, when we see each other everyday n never get bored (at least for me). Weekly groceries shopping at jp after class, stocking up our food for the week.. initial preparation for our stay in the hall lugging pillows and buckets back fr the mall…machine wash our clothes every week and hanging them tog outside the room, havin our bras stolen becoz we forgot to keep them in over the weekend.. pulling our single beds tog under the fan for some warmth.. body massages we gave each other.. listening to lee hom’s songs while mugging tog.. me strumming on the guitar with the wrong chords but we can stil sing our hearts out late till 4am in the morn, with security guards complaining abt the noise we made..these are oni the little memories left inside of me of the many times we shared in this frenship of almost ten years?
What will be of the future. We have no idea. What I knw is physical distance will grow. Emotional as well. Each being occupied with our own lives. Bt the essence of a friendship is always, not in sight, but still in mind. Like wat ppl say, frens are like stars, oni seen n glowing in the dark. I very well wish that I can stil be one of that star in ur life. No matter how faint n with limited capacity. To be there for u if u ever need my help. Though its always the other way round.
11.11.07
Changi Boardwalk
2nd time there.. but stil don see the big orange as it was a cloudy day.
insects spotted
a very dao-looking cat
wedding couple
nevertheless, stil a beautiful dusk
insects spotted
a very dao-looking cat
wedding couple
nevertheless, stil a beautiful dusk
31.10.07
Ride the storm.. focus on Jesus alone.
10.30.07
Stormy Seas
Immediately Jesus made His disciples get into the boat and go before Him to the other side, while He sent the multitudes away. And when He had sent the multitudes away, He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray. Now when evening came, He was alone there. But the boat was now in the middle of the sea, tossed by the waves, for the wind was contrary. Now in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went to them, walking on the sea. And when the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, "It is a ghost!" And they cried out for fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, "Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid." And Peter answered Him and said,"Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." So He said,"Come." And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, "Lord, save me!" And immediately
Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?" And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. Then those who were in the boat came and worshiped Him, saying, "Truly You are the Son of God." - Matthew 14:22-33.
Now I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away. Also there was no more sea. - Revelation 21:1.
I was listening to a song by the Christian group Selah yesterday about walking on stormy waters. I don't believe that I had ever comprehended what they were saying before. Here are a few of the lyrics:
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
(To read more of the lyrics or to find out more about Selah - go to
Selahonline.com.)
Many of us have been struggling in the stormy seas for a long time. We are not walking on the waters instead; we are struggling to keep our heads above water. The stormy seas we sail are not the Atlantic or the Pacific but instead are the seas of health issues, relational problems, financial needs and more.
John Ortberg's book "If You Want to Walk on Water You have to get out of the Boat" is a classic. For the apostle Peter to walk on water he had to get out of the boat. What faith that must have taken! How did He do it? He did it by faith. He did it by having his eyes on Jesus. What happened that made Peter begin to sink into the sea? It was when Peter took his eyes, his focus off of Jesus and began to look at the waves tossed about by the wind that he stopped walking and started sinking.
We have our own seas to walk upon, or for many of us, not walking but just trying to keep our heads above the waves. The wind is blowing us this way and that way. There are problems to the right and there are problems to the left. There seems to be no end with another phone call, an email, or the next day's mail that brings an increase in the velocity of the storm.
How can we do more than keep our heads above the waves, above the water? We have to put those stormy seas into their proper perspective. They should not be the focus of our lives. We know that they are there and they have to be dealt with but it does not have to consume us. There is still life, real life to be lived. We walk on top of those stormy seas and live life by keep our focus upon our Lord Jesus Christ. We maintain that focus through prayer,reading the Bible, being active in church, and serving Him no matter how high the waves around us may be. At times, we may begin to sink like Peter. When that happens, do what Peter did. Cry out to Jesus and He will lift you up to walk on those stormy seas once again.
As the Bible closes out in the last pages of the book of Revelation, we have a great promise that some great wonderful day there will be "no more sea." Someday the stormy waters of life will be gone, there will be a new Heaven,and a new Earth filled only with joy. (If you are one of my facebook friends you can watch the Selah video, "You Raise Me Up" that I have posted to my profile.)
Copyright © 2007. Ed Wrather. Permission is given for use of the devotionals on a non-profit basis with source credited. The Burning Bush website has been online since January 31, 1998. On June 8, 1998 the email version of the Burning Bush Devotional was first sent.
Stormy Seas
Immediately Jesus made His disciples get into the boat and go before Him to the other side, while He sent the multitudes away. And when He had sent the multitudes away, He went up on the mountain by Himself to pray. Now when evening came, He was alone there. But the boat was now in the middle of the sea, tossed by the waves, for the wind was contrary. Now in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went to them, walking on the sea. And when the disciples saw Him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, "It is a ghost!" And they cried out for fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, "Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid." And Peter answered Him and said,"Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." So He said,"Come." And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, "Lord, save me!" And immediately
Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?" And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. Then those who were in the boat came and worshiped Him, saying, "Truly You are the Son of God." - Matthew 14:22-33.
Now I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away. Also there was no more sea. - Revelation 21:1.
I was listening to a song by the Christian group Selah yesterday about walking on stormy waters. I don't believe that I had ever comprehended what they were saying before. Here are a few of the lyrics:
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
(To read more of the lyrics or to find out more about Selah - go to
Selahonline.com.)
Many of us have been struggling in the stormy seas for a long time. We are not walking on the waters instead; we are struggling to keep our heads above water. The stormy seas we sail are not the Atlantic or the Pacific but instead are the seas of health issues, relational problems, financial needs and more.
John Ortberg's book "If You Want to Walk on Water You have to get out of the Boat" is a classic. For the apostle Peter to walk on water he had to get out of the boat. What faith that must have taken! How did He do it? He did it by faith. He did it by having his eyes on Jesus. What happened that made Peter begin to sink into the sea? It was when Peter took his eyes, his focus off of Jesus and began to look at the waves tossed about by the wind that he stopped walking and started sinking.
We have our own seas to walk upon, or for many of us, not walking but just trying to keep our heads above the waves. The wind is blowing us this way and that way. There are problems to the right and there are problems to the left. There seems to be no end with another phone call, an email, or the next day's mail that brings an increase in the velocity of the storm.
How can we do more than keep our heads above the waves, above the water? We have to put those stormy seas into their proper perspective. They should not be the focus of our lives. We know that they are there and they have to be dealt with but it does not have to consume us. There is still life, real life to be lived. We walk on top of those stormy seas and live life by keep our focus upon our Lord Jesus Christ. We maintain that focus through prayer,reading the Bible, being active in church, and serving Him no matter how high the waves around us may be. At times, we may begin to sink like Peter. When that happens, do what Peter did. Cry out to Jesus and He will lift you up to walk on those stormy seas once again.
As the Bible closes out in the last pages of the book of Revelation, we have a great promise that some great wonderful day there will be "no more sea." Someday the stormy waters of life will be gone, there will be a new Heaven,and a new Earth filled only with joy. (If you are one of my facebook friends you can watch the Selah video, "You Raise Me Up" that I have posted to my profile.)
Copyright © 2007. Ed Wrather. Permission is given for use of the devotionals on a non-profit basis with source credited. The Burning Bush website has been online since January 31, 1998. On June 8, 1998 the email version of the Burning Bush Devotional was first sent.
27.10.07
26.10.07
alma mater..
School Song
Music by W.F. Chin
Lyrics by Mohd. Said Samad
We can, we will, we must
With grit, and vigour and drive
Better this place of ours, never quit
Problems we must surmount to reach
Always strive with the beacon to guide
Greater heights where we stand with pride
Bedok View Secondary
Our pride
Our hope
Our aspiration
Here we plan, and work, to serve
To serve
To serve this nation.
For a Better Better Future
For a Better Future
Shan, im sure u remembered the tune..sing it for me sometime..ha
Music by W.F. Chin
Lyrics by Mohd. Said Samad
We can, we will, we must
With grit, and vigour and drive
Better this place of ours, never quit
Problems we must surmount to reach
Always strive with the beacon to guide
Greater heights where we stand with pride
Bedok View Secondary
Our pride
Our hope
Our aspiration
Here we plan, and work, to serve
To serve
To serve this nation.
For a Better Better Future
For a Better Future
Shan, im sure u remembered the tune..sing it for me sometime..ha
25.10.07
it's fun waiting to see how fast news spread..
it's funny and ironic that when it isn't supposed to, it did. but when it should, it didnt.but that's life right? this is how much you can control.
the waitin game has juz started. the countdown too.
a merry heart is good medicine. indeed. n oh, plus some booze. =p
it's funny and ironic that when it isn't supposed to, it did. but when it should, it didnt.but that's life right? this is how much you can control.
the waitin game has juz started. the countdown too.
a merry heart is good medicine. indeed. n oh, plus some booze. =p
24.10.07
A reminder..
Strangers in the House
The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. - John
10:10a.
Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him. Let no one say when he is tempted, "I am tempted by God"; for God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does He Himself tempt anyone. But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown,brings forth death. - James 1:12-15.
Kim Ledford went on a lengthy vacation and finally returned to her home. Shock would be a mild term for what Kim experienced when she arrived at her home. She walked into her house and found that a woman was wearing her clothes and an unknown man was in her bed. Another man confronted her and asked why Kim was in his house! The police were able to find the truth and arrested the strangers for burglary. Now these strange people have a new home called a jail.
Can you imagine the shock that Kim Ledford must have felt to have all of those strange people inside her home? What would have been even stranger would have been if Kim had invited them to stay and live there with her. Of course, Kim did not do that she immediately called the police. However, many of us are not as smart. Let me explain.
When we are saved, the Holy Spirit comes to live within our hearts and lives. Our physical body becomes the Temple of the Holy Spirit. Our body is the Holy Spirit's house. That house has been swept out and made clean (2 Corinthians 5:17). What happens to that house when the strangers show up? Let me rephrase what happens to that house, your house when sin knocks on your door? Do you call out to the Lord for help? Or, do you invite these strangers of sin to come on in and stay a little while?
It sounds very strange because we as Christians know that sin is deadly. We know that sin is as bad as giving a baby a rattlesnake to play with (Romans 6:23a) - but too many times we tolerate sin. We tolerate certain levels of sin. We know that sometimes those shows on TV and the movies we watch are inappropriate but we watch them anyway. We know some of those books that we read contain things that Christians should not read but we read them anyway. We tell our little white lies because we don't want to hurt anyone. Some of us drink and smoke and may even do some dope sometimes but nobody is getting hurt are they? Some of us flirt and say things that are inappropriate but it's all in fun, right? Some of us _____ (just fill in the blank).
The sad truth is that when we invite the strangers of sin in to live with us we are just asking for trouble. If we allow them to stay around it will result in a downward slide growing more and more apart from where God would want us to be. If we allow those strangers to stay, the thief will have stolen our lives away and we will never experience the abundant life that our Lord wants us to have. Ask the Lord to give you the strength to throw those strangers of sin out of the house.
Copyright © 2007. Ed Wrather. Permission is given for use of the devotionals on a non-profit basis with source credited. The Burning Bush website has been online since January 31, 1998. On June 8, 1998 the email version of the Burning Bush Devotional was first sent.
The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. - John
10:10a.
Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him. Let no one say when he is tempted, "I am tempted by God"; for God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does He Himself tempt anyone. But each one is tempted when he is drawn away by his own desires and enticed. Then, when desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown,brings forth death. - James 1:12-15.
Kim Ledford went on a lengthy vacation and finally returned to her home. Shock would be a mild term for what Kim experienced when she arrived at her home. She walked into her house and found that a woman was wearing her clothes and an unknown man was in her bed. Another man confronted her and asked why Kim was in his house! The police were able to find the truth and arrested the strangers for burglary. Now these strange people have a new home called a jail.
Can you imagine the shock that Kim Ledford must have felt to have all of those strange people inside her home? What would have been even stranger would have been if Kim had invited them to stay and live there with her. Of course, Kim did not do that she immediately called the police. However, many of us are not as smart. Let me explain.
When we are saved, the Holy Spirit comes to live within our hearts and lives. Our physical body becomes the Temple of the Holy Spirit. Our body is the Holy Spirit's house. That house has been swept out and made clean (2 Corinthians 5:17). What happens to that house when the strangers show up? Let me rephrase what happens to that house, your house when sin knocks on your door? Do you call out to the Lord for help? Or, do you invite these strangers of sin to come on in and stay a little while?
It sounds very strange because we as Christians know that sin is deadly. We know that sin is as bad as giving a baby a rattlesnake to play with (Romans 6:23a) - but too many times we tolerate sin. We tolerate certain levels of sin. We know that sometimes those shows on TV and the movies we watch are inappropriate but we watch them anyway. We know some of those books that we read contain things that Christians should not read but we read them anyway. We tell our little white lies because we don't want to hurt anyone. Some of us drink and smoke and may even do some dope sometimes but nobody is getting hurt are they? Some of us flirt and say things that are inappropriate but it's all in fun, right? Some of us _____ (just fill in the blank).
The sad truth is that when we invite the strangers of sin in to live with us we are just asking for trouble. If we allow them to stay around it will result in a downward slide growing more and more apart from where God would want us to be. If we allow those strangers to stay, the thief will have stolen our lives away and we will never experience the abundant life that our Lord wants us to have. Ask the Lord to give you the strength to throw those strangers of sin out of the house.
Copyright © 2007. Ed Wrather. Permission is given for use of the devotionals on a non-profit basis with source credited. The Burning Bush website has been online since January 31, 1998. On June 8, 1998 the email version of the Burning Bush Devotional was first sent.
21.10.07
- 17th Dec 2007 - {=^_^=}
now.. don ask me when im leaving anymore. don grumble abt my changing of plans n unwilingness to properly ans qns.
n .. don ask me when i'll be back. it might be days..mths..or years..i reali don know.
i'm already beginning to miss many ppl.
and the food! despite all the good food (esp in tpy) tat has already taken its toil on my health yet again.
n .. don ask me when i'll be back. it might be days..mths..or years..i reali don know.
i'm already beginning to miss many ppl.
and the food! despite all the good food (esp in tpy) tat has already taken its toil on my health yet again.
17.10.07
what we always forgot to do.. be cheerful no matter what happens! Come What May!
TODAY'S WHISPER: King Solomon's key to great health
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TODAY'S VERSE: Proverbs 17:22a
"A cheerful disposition is good for your health..."
[The Message (MSG) Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson]
"A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing..."
[Amplified Bible (AMP) Copyright © 1954, 1958, 1962, 1964, 1965, 1987 by The Lockman Foundation]
"A cheerful heart is good medicine..."
[New Living Translation (NLT) Holy Bible. New Living Translation copyright © 1996, 2004 by Tyndale Charitable Trust. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers.]
"If you are cheerful, you feel good..."
[Contemporary English Version (CEV) Copyright © 1995 by American Bible Society]
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Proverbs 17
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Every single day there are many reasons to be angry, stressed out, sad, and even afraid. Just watch an evening 10-minute newscast segment on any TV station and you'll see how much negativity surrounds us all. Even within ourselves, it is very easy to have a negative attitude and blame it on the weather, lack of money, solitude, other people's lack of consideration, our bosses, you name it.
Despite all these realities, God's Word has a key to good health and worry-free living. And it is not sold anywhere nor does it cost us a cent. Its only cost is our disposition to be cheerful: to laugh whenever possible, to smile at everyone we meet, to think positive at all times, to be grateful for all the blessings we have, to praise God for His marvelous and infinite grace, you name it!
As redeemed saints and children of The Most High, there is no reason not to be cheerful. Hasn't God provided you for all your needs? Hasn't God been there in your most critical moments? Hasn't God proved faithful even when we have not honored Him 100%?
Enjoy your day!! :-)
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your AWESOME grace, love and favor every single second of my life. Teach me to be cheerful regardless of my present circumstances, for You truly care for me and will continue to provide to all of my needs in Christ Jesus. This I pray with an attitude of thanksgiving, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: Proverbs 17:22a
"A cheerful disposition is good for your health..."
[The Message (MSG) Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson]
"A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing..."
[Amplified Bible (AMP) Copyright © 1954, 1958, 1962, 1964, 1965, 1987 by The Lockman Foundation]
"A cheerful heart is good medicine..."
[New Living Translation (NLT) Holy Bible. New Living Translation copyright © 1996, 2004 by Tyndale Charitable Trust. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers.]
"If you are cheerful, you feel good..."
[Contemporary English Version (CEV) Copyright © 1995 by American Bible Society]
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Proverbs 17
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Every single day there are many reasons to be angry, stressed out, sad, and even afraid. Just watch an evening 10-minute newscast segment on any TV station and you'll see how much negativity surrounds us all. Even within ourselves, it is very easy to have a negative attitude and blame it on the weather, lack of money, solitude, other people's lack of consideration, our bosses, you name it.
Despite all these realities, God's Word has a key to good health and worry-free living. And it is not sold anywhere nor does it cost us a cent. Its only cost is our disposition to be cheerful: to laugh whenever possible, to smile at everyone we meet, to think positive at all times, to be grateful for all the blessings we have, to praise God for His marvelous and infinite grace, you name it!
As redeemed saints and children of The Most High, there is no reason not to be cheerful. Hasn't God provided you for all your needs? Hasn't God been there in your most critical moments? Hasn't God proved faithful even when we have not honored Him 100%?
Enjoy your day!! :-)
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your AWESOME grace, love and favor every single second of my life. Teach me to be cheerful regardless of my present circumstances, for You truly care for me and will continue to provide to all of my needs in Christ Jesus. This I pray with an attitude of thanksgiving, amen.
15.10.07
when ppl try to remedy situations, they oni make tins worst.
but i totali understd that its oni human nature to share.
yea share meaning spread news/rumours/gossips
and dan A become B and when they try to clear tins up, B became C. not A.
reali. i couldnt n don wan to care anymore.
but i cant help feelin blue today.
teach me how to face ppl who actually knows i know, but i hav to act like its ok n i don know. huh? wateva.
but i totali understd that its oni human nature to share.
yea share meaning spread news/rumours/gossips
and dan A become B and when they try to clear tins up, B became C. not A.
reali. i couldnt n don wan to care anymore.
but i cant help feelin blue today.
teach me how to face ppl who actually knows i know, but i hav to act like its ok n i don know. huh? wateva.
9.10.07
So, if you don have the money like others do.
If their cab rides are as frequent as my bus rides.. n their plane rides are like my cab rides..
If I don have on-board meals as often as they do on normal weekend morns..
And them getting massages is as easy as me reaching for my strawberry massage stick. =(
And, they gg to beaches in phuket is way easier dan me gg to the east coast park.
How do I make good of my life? with what I have?
I suddenly recall reading abt the difference btw being jealous n being envious. Formal is bad. Latter is good. Coz you feel happie for wat they have, though u wish u can hav that too, but u’re still happie with wat u have, no matter how little.
Ah.
If their cab rides are as frequent as my bus rides.. n their plane rides are like my cab rides..
If I don have on-board meals as often as they do on normal weekend morns..
And them getting massages is as easy as me reaching for my strawberry massage stick. =(
And, they gg to beaches in phuket is way easier dan me gg to the east coast park.
How do I make good of my life? with what I have?
I suddenly recall reading abt the difference btw being jealous n being envious. Formal is bad. Latter is good. Coz you feel happie for wat they have, though u wish u can hav that too, but u’re still happie with wat u have, no matter how little.
Ah.
8.10.07
25 is the age when u start looking at slightly more expensive designer bags like coach and burberry. some gucci n LV.
its also the age u start to feel extremely useless in ur occupation if u even have one.
when u start the ponder the meaning of ur existence on earth. at home. at work. on the road among a huge crowd of aunties which u tink u're part of soon, or teenagers which u've past that stage like 10 years ago n make u feel even more old.
when ur frens of ur age start to get married. n u wonder why ppl get married so early (even though i thot this age was quite ok for marriage when i was way younger).its funny but ppl get married to get a HDB flat and have kids. its a stage of life here. so sad.and boring.
how can i be different?
its also the age u start to feel extremely useless in ur occupation if u even have one.
when u start the ponder the meaning of ur existence on earth. at home. at work. on the road among a huge crowd of aunties which u tink u're part of soon, or teenagers which u've past that stage like 10 years ago n make u feel even more old.
when ur frens of ur age start to get married. n u wonder why ppl get married so early (even though i thot this age was quite ok for marriage when i was way younger).its funny but ppl get married to get a HDB flat and have kids. its a stage of life here. so sad.and boring.
how can i be different?
6.10.07
ouch!!! sobz..
wat a painful dental experience.. the last filling was done a year ago oni!
it hurts big time again coz he got to dig out the old filling of this broken molar. n dig further in to reach the decayed part. i hate that painful feeling! new filling done. bt he says its not oni becoz i keep biting food on the left side, but oso the last molar was not used during biting coz the molar on top is not in line.i thot that out-of-place molar on top wouldnt cause much problem but i was wrong. hai...he even suggested i do braces on the top juz to correct tat molar's position, so i can bite better with the last molar below, n not overuse my second last broken molar. sobzsobz..
if i can grow up again, i reali wouldnt eat so much sweets. n i will brush my teeth two times everyday. boohooooo...
it hurts big time again coz he got to dig out the old filling of this broken molar. n dig further in to reach the decayed part. i hate that painful feeling! new filling done. bt he says its not oni becoz i keep biting food on the left side, but oso the last molar was not used during biting coz the molar on top is not in line.i thot that out-of-place molar on top wouldnt cause much problem but i was wrong. hai...he even suggested i do braces on the top juz to correct tat molar's position, so i can bite better with the last molar below, n not overuse my second last broken molar. sobzsobz..
if i can grow up again, i reali wouldnt eat so much sweets. n i will brush my teeth two times everyday. boohooooo...
1.10.07
No, this isn’t a bible study centre. Its just that at this point in time, from now onwards, im choosing to get closer back to Him again.(i might hav mentioned this several times here..but stil..) Of decisions and choices. They’re big n major at least to me. I suck at making decisions. N I always look back n ponder on the alternative route. *slaps* N nobody can help me except Him. Im guilty that I only come back closer to Him in times of crisis. Ah…
But I have learnt sometin. That my action/words, despite having no meaning to a non-christian, might deeply impact a fellow Christian. As in, stumbling others with my actions/behaviour. For eg, there are certain tins which my dear sis-in-christ wont do in church services, which I used to disagree with, n think that they r too strict rules to follow. today I hav seen her grow deeper n stronger in Christ, despite her life not being problem-free, but I truly admire her adherence to God’s principles strictly. So she don stumble others and vice versa. If I didn’t choose tat path 3 years back dan. I would be a different being now. But theres no lookin back.. I can oni promise to continue in my growth.. stop delaying doing my daily qt.. gg back for worship.. but joining a cell grp again will definitely need more time. Im reali still a baby in my spiritual life, it seems. *ashamed*
-> step out of every sin I’m holding onto.. letting go of every stronghold in my life.
Hebrews 10:26
If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left.
-> And of coz, as always, be prayerful, in good n bad times, pray n give thanks. Always!
Philippians 4:6
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
-> And lastly, don’t forget His promises. Promises follow principles. Press on.
2 Corinthians 7:1
"Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God."
Sidenote: u can choose to laugh all u wan, but I wont choose to rebuke a fool. Harsh it may sound, but .. the truth will only be seen that very day.
Happie children's day! Let out the child in u ,n juz be happie for the littlest things. please don forget to honour your parents as well. for as long as one day u r living under them aka single/unmarried, we'll have to obey them in Everything.
But I have learnt sometin. That my action/words, despite having no meaning to a non-christian, might deeply impact a fellow Christian. As in, stumbling others with my actions/behaviour. For eg, there are certain tins which my dear sis-in-christ wont do in church services, which I used to disagree with, n think that they r too strict rules to follow. today I hav seen her grow deeper n stronger in Christ, despite her life not being problem-free, but I truly admire her adherence to God’s principles strictly. So she don stumble others and vice versa. If I didn’t choose tat path 3 years back dan. I would be a different being now. But theres no lookin back.. I can oni promise to continue in my growth.. stop delaying doing my daily qt.. gg back for worship.. but joining a cell grp again will definitely need more time. Im reali still a baby in my spiritual life, it seems. *ashamed*
-> step out of every sin I’m holding onto.. letting go of every stronghold in my life.
Hebrews 10:26
If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sins is left.
-> And of coz, as always, be prayerful, in good n bad times, pray n give thanks. Always!
Philippians 4:6
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
-> And lastly, don’t forget His promises. Promises follow principles. Press on.
2 Corinthians 7:1
"Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God."
Sidenote: u can choose to laugh all u wan, but I wont choose to rebuke a fool. Harsh it may sound, but .. the truth will only be seen that very day.
Happie children's day! Let out the child in u ,n juz be happie for the littlest things. please don forget to honour your parents as well. for as long as one day u r living under them aka single/unmarried, we'll have to obey them in Everything.
28.9.07
Pray before you promise, follow His principles closely everyday to keep it.
TODAY'S WHISPER: Remember that promises follow principles
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TODAY'S VERSE: 2 Corinthians 7:1
[New International Version]: "Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God."
[The Message Bible]: "With promises like this to pull us on, dear friends, let's make a clean break with everything that defiles or distracts us, both within and without. Let's make our entire lives fit and holy temples for the worship of God."
[Amplified Bible]: "THEREFORE, SINCE these [great] promises are ours, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from everything that contaminates and defiles body and spirit, and bring [our] consecration to completeness in the [reverential] fear of God."
[Contemporary English Version]: "My friends, God has made us these promises. So we should stay away from everything that keeps our bodies and spirits from being clean. We should honor God and try to be completely like him."
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When am I going to receive this blessing?? When is this storm going to stop?? When will I finally see the deliverance I've prayed for so long?? When am I going to see the fulfillment of God's promise in my life?? Will it ever happen??
I'm sure all of us have made these questions sometime in our Christian journey. We pray very hard. We fast several times. We confess God's Word and declare it true. We believe with all our hearts. Yet, the answer seems so far away...
The truth is that our Almighty Heavenly Father knows everything about our life and our needs, and He has ALL the power in the entire universe to fulfill His promises unto us. However, God has also established Biblical principles that serve as guidelines to ensure our safety and success --and provide great opportunities to build patience and strength along the way. So, while God is able to perform a miracle in our life anytime and anywhere, most of the time He will prefer to work through the principles He has already established. Our part is then to believe the promise and seek wisdom to follow the principle.
So, my friend, don't get discouraged if you haven't seen your answer yet. God is already working on your behalf, and the answer is closer than you think. Just exercise your patience and keep seeking godly wisdom. You will soon reach the other end and celebrate God's goodness.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for always being faithful to Your promises. Help me to continue being faithful in seeking Your face and Your will. As I become more and more like You, I trust that You will provide the answer to every one of my needs. In Jesus' name I pray and rejoice, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: 2 Corinthians 7:1
[New International Version]: "Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God."
[The Message Bible]: "With promises like this to pull us on, dear friends, let's make a clean break with everything that defiles or distracts us, both within and without. Let's make our entire lives fit and holy temples for the worship of God."
[Amplified Bible]: "THEREFORE, SINCE these [great] promises are ours, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from everything that contaminates and defiles body and spirit, and bring [our] consecration to completeness in the [reverential] fear of God."
[Contemporary English Version]: "My friends, God has made us these promises. So we should stay away from everything that keeps our bodies and spirits from being clean. We should honor God and try to be completely like him."
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When am I going to receive this blessing?? When is this storm going to stop?? When will I finally see the deliverance I've prayed for so long?? When am I going to see the fulfillment of God's promise in my life?? Will it ever happen??
I'm sure all of us have made these questions sometime in our Christian journey. We pray very hard. We fast several times. We confess God's Word and declare it true. We believe with all our hearts. Yet, the answer seems so far away...
The truth is that our Almighty Heavenly Father knows everything about our life and our needs, and He has ALL the power in the entire universe to fulfill His promises unto us. However, God has also established Biblical principles that serve as guidelines to ensure our safety and success --and provide great opportunities to build patience and strength along the way. So, while God is able to perform a miracle in our life anytime and anywhere, most of the time He will prefer to work through the principles He has already established. Our part is then to believe the promise and seek wisdom to follow the principle.
So, my friend, don't get discouraged if you haven't seen your answer yet. God is already working on your behalf, and the answer is closer than you think. Just exercise your patience and keep seeking godly wisdom. You will soon reach the other end and celebrate God's goodness.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for always being faithful to Your promises. Help me to continue being faithful in seeking Your face and Your will. As I become more and more like You, I trust that You will provide the answer to every one of my needs. In Jesus' name I pray and rejoice, amen.
26.9.07
A contrite heart i come before You
TODAY'S WHISPER: God desires to give you a brand new start!
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TODAY'S VERSE: 1 John 1:9
[The Message Bible]: "...if we admit our sins--make a clean breast of them--he won't let us down; he'll be true to himself. He'll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing."
[Amplified Version]: "If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just (true to His own nature and promises) and will forgive our sins [dismiss our lawlessness] and [continuously] cleanse us from all unrighteousness [everything not in conformity to His will in purpose, thought, and action]."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Luke 5:1-11 compared to John 21:1-13
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If you take a moment and read the two Biblical portions provided in Today's Scripture, you will notice something very interesting. While both incidents happened at different times of Jesus' earthly ministry --the first during the selection of His twelve main disciples; the second days after His resurrection--, the miracles were basically the same: the catch of a big number of fish during daytime hours after having tried all night without success. Now, what I find most interesting is the fact that Jesus did not give up on His chosen people --even after what happened to Him at the cross. Rather, He led them to experience once again the same miracle He had performed when they were asked to follow Him... as if He were telling them, "Hey guys, don't worry about the past; let's just start all over again."
This is key to Jesus' message and the reality of The Gospel. Our God is a God of second chances, Who, despite our past mistakes and wrongdoings, is faithful to keep believing in us and grant us a complete fresh start!
Don't let no one tell you that there's no hope, that you cannot make it. God is always ready to cleanse us and make us whole if we humbly confess our wrongdoings and commit to follow Him.
YES!... you and I **can** have a brand new start. Let's simply follow Jesus.
-- Brother Abnel
TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your unfailing love and faithfulness even when I have not done the right things. Thank You for being a God of second chances, always able to forgive and grant fresh beginnings. I ask Your forgiveness right now and commit to follow Your lead. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
Today's whispers came in two days late. but they still tie in so well. I was reading Psalm 51 during QT on monday night. cried a bucket. but learnt and had my peace of mind.a prayer formally made, more dan 3 months late. but God is merciful. few verses caught me. n i know i hav to keep them in mind fr now.. wherever i am..
verse 10: Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
verse 12: Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
verse 17: The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart.
they simply reminded me to, remain steadfast like how i was in the beginning of my christian life, tat is, to remain firm in purpose, fix my eyes on jesus n follow Him closely everyday of my life. Be reminded of the joy of salvation, take pride and live up to His name. n of coz, nver forget that our God is a forgiving God. but of coz, with a contrite heart to come before Him for his forgiveness.
I will be good.
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TODAY'S VERSE: 1 John 1:9
[The Message Bible]: "...if we admit our sins--make a clean breast of them--he won't let us down; he'll be true to himself. He'll forgive our sins and purge us of all wrongdoing."
[Amplified Version]: "If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just (true to His own nature and promises) and will forgive our sins [dismiss our lawlessness] and [continuously] cleanse us from all unrighteousness [everything not in conformity to His will in purpose, thought, and action]."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Luke 5:1-11 compared to John 21:1-13
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If you take a moment and read the two Biblical portions provided in Today's Scripture, you will notice something very interesting. While both incidents happened at different times of Jesus' earthly ministry --the first during the selection of His twelve main disciples; the second days after His resurrection--, the miracles were basically the same: the catch of a big number of fish during daytime hours after having tried all night without success. Now, what I find most interesting is the fact that Jesus did not give up on His chosen people --even after what happened to Him at the cross. Rather, He led them to experience once again the same miracle He had performed when they were asked to follow Him... as if He were telling them, "Hey guys, don't worry about the past; let's just start all over again."
This is key to Jesus' message and the reality of The Gospel. Our God is a God of second chances, Who, despite our past mistakes and wrongdoings, is faithful to keep believing in us and grant us a complete fresh start!
Don't let no one tell you that there's no hope, that you cannot make it. God is always ready to cleanse us and make us whole if we humbly confess our wrongdoings and commit to follow Him.
YES!... you and I **can** have a brand new start. Let's simply follow Jesus.
-- Brother Abnel
TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your unfailing love and faithfulness even when I have not done the right things. Thank You for being a God of second chances, always able to forgive and grant fresh beginnings. I ask Your forgiveness right now and commit to follow Your lead. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
Today's whispers came in two days late. but they still tie in so well. I was reading Psalm 51 during QT on monday night. cried a bucket. but learnt and had my peace of mind.a prayer formally made, more dan 3 months late. but God is merciful. few verses caught me. n i know i hav to keep them in mind fr now.. wherever i am..
verse 10: Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
verse 12: Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
verse 17: The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart.
they simply reminded me to, remain steadfast like how i was in the beginning of my christian life, tat is, to remain firm in purpose, fix my eyes on jesus n follow Him closely everyday of my life. Be reminded of the joy of salvation, take pride and live up to His name. n of coz, nver forget that our God is a forgiving God. but of coz, with a contrite heart to come before Him for his forgiveness.
I will be good.
14.9.07
5.9.07
TODAY'S WHISPER: Don't let the rational limit the imaginable
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TODAY'S VERSE: Genesis 18:14 [New Living Translation]: "Is anything too hard for the LORD?"
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Genesis 18:1-15
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"Where will you be 10 years from now?" is a common question brought forth during job interviews. It is also a great question to make to ourselves when it comes to planning for our future. For even though God is the only One Who can see what's ahead, His Spirit's daily guidance can definitely show us where our God desires us to be, where we were and are meant to be at the appointed time.
The true challenge here is our tendency as humans to place limitations to our future based upon today's circumstances and our rational minds. "Do we have enough money and resources to get there? Do we have the degree or requirements to achieve this or that position? Can we really achieve it and be there?" These are just a few of all the rational questions that easily hinder our vision towards what God has already in store for our future.
But the truth is simple: we do NOT need to allow our rational thoughts to limit the imaginable. Just as in Genesis 18, Sara did not think possible the blessing of a child at an advanced age (Who does?). But as the Holy Scriptures clearly declare in verse 14, "Is anything too hard for the LORD?" We find the answer to this key question in the words of the angel who, many years later, visited Mary, our Lord Jesus' mother, to announce the virgin birth: "For nothing is impossible with God." (Luke 1:37, New Living Translation)
To be the people God designed us to be, and to live the abundant life God intended for us to have in Jesus, we need to continue dreaming BIG, and allowing God's Spirit to reveal to us the what, where, who, when and how's. If we choose to believe God, The Creator of our Universe, then NOTHING will ever be impossible for us!! Even the imaginable today will have its reality tomorrow at the proper time and place.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for designing me with a purpose and destiny, and for already setting forth a bright and meaningful future. Help me to acknowledge Your awesome power in every step I take, and lead me in the right path every single day. I pray and believe this in the precious name of Jesus, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: Genesis 18:14 [New Living Translation]: "Is anything too hard for the LORD?"
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Genesis 18:1-15
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"Where will you be 10 years from now?" is a common question brought forth during job interviews. It is also a great question to make to ourselves when it comes to planning for our future. For even though God is the only One Who can see what's ahead, His Spirit's daily guidance can definitely show us where our God desires us to be, where we were and are meant to be at the appointed time.
The true challenge here is our tendency as humans to place limitations to our future based upon today's circumstances and our rational minds. "Do we have enough money and resources to get there? Do we have the degree or requirements to achieve this or that position? Can we really achieve it and be there?" These are just a few of all the rational questions that easily hinder our vision towards what God has already in store for our future.
But the truth is simple: we do NOT need to allow our rational thoughts to limit the imaginable. Just as in Genesis 18, Sara did not think possible the blessing of a child at an advanced age (Who does?). But as the Holy Scriptures clearly declare in verse 14, "Is anything too hard for the LORD?" We find the answer to this key question in the words of the angel who, many years later, visited Mary, our Lord Jesus' mother, to announce the virgin birth: "For nothing is impossible with God." (Luke 1:37, New Living Translation)
To be the people God designed us to be, and to live the abundant life God intended for us to have in Jesus, we need to continue dreaming BIG, and allowing God's Spirit to reveal to us the what, where, who, when and how's. If we choose to believe God, The Creator of our Universe, then NOTHING will ever be impossible for us!! Even the imaginable today will have its reality tomorrow at the proper time and place.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for designing me with a purpose and destiny, and for already setting forth a bright and meaningful future. Help me to acknowledge Your awesome power in every step I take, and lead me in the right path every single day. I pray and believe this in the precious name of Jesus, amen.
31.8.07
S.L.O.W down.. it's friday..
TODAY'S WHISPER: Don't wait for a brick to hit you
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TODAY'S VERSE: Jeremiah 2:25a [The Message Bible]: "Slow down. Take a deep breath. What's the hurry? Why wear yourself out? Just what are you after anyway?"
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A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something.
As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what the hell are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?"
The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..." With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother, "he said. "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."
Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me."
Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay. "Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.
It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: "Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!"
God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not...
--anonymous
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your mercies toward me which are brand new every single day. Teach me to slow down and keep pace with the needs around me, so that Your name be glorified as I listen, watch, and show Your compassion unto others. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: Jeremiah 2:25a [The Message Bible]: "Slow down. Take a deep breath. What's the hurry? Why wear yourself out? Just what are you after anyway?"
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A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something.
As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting, "What was that all about and who are you? Just what the hell are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?"
The young boy was apologetic. "Please, mister...please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do," He pleaded. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop..." With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother, "he said. "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."
Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me."
Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay. "Thank you and may God bless you," the grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.
It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: "Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!"
God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not...
--anonymous
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your mercies toward me which are brand new every single day. Teach me to slow down and keep pace with the needs around me, so that Your name be glorified as I listen, watch, and show Your compassion unto others. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
30.8.07
don't keep in mind, keep it in the heart.
TODAY'S WHISPER: Speak the truth... with love
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TODAY'S VERSE: Ephesians 4:15 [New International Version]: "...speaking the truth in love..."
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In our everyday conversations, especially in "heated" discussions, most of us strive to be right. We know the truth, and we want to make it plain and known, but we usually forget that, to be receivable and provoke desired results, the receiver needs to feel genuine love surrounding it. Love is the carrier (transmitter) that takes truth and inserts it in the receiver's heart.
While trying to strongly defend our statement, we tend to use our position of authority, or rely on any other authority to make our point clear, not accepting anything else in the discussion. Our point is made, and since we believe it is the truth, we firmly stand and don't allow any opportunity to simply receive the other person's ideas, suggestions or disagreements.
We may be right concerning the truth we are sharing, but we may be missing the fact that only God's love can make that truth smoothly inserted in the other person's heart. Truth can stay accumulated in people's minds, but that will not transform lives. What resides in our heart is what will definitely change us.
When we open our hearts to love, God's Spirit moves and provides the power needed for transformation. When we are willing to love and forgive, we allow God to move on our behalf and change the negative to the positive. What we thought was impossible becomes possible with God's power.
Choose today to speak love. That's the key to your everyday success.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the opportunity to know the truth through Your Word. I believe Your truth shall set me free, and I ask for Your guidance today. Help me to always be sensitive to other people's needs, and to let Your love fill everything I say, do, and act upon. I thank You for the transformation that is taking place right now because of Your truth, and I praise You for the results. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: Ephesians 4:15 [New International Version]: "...speaking the truth in love..."
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In our everyday conversations, especially in "heated" discussions, most of us strive to be right. We know the truth, and we want to make it plain and known, but we usually forget that, to be receivable and provoke desired results, the receiver needs to feel genuine love surrounding it. Love is the carrier (transmitter) that takes truth and inserts it in the receiver's heart.
While trying to strongly defend our statement, we tend to use our position of authority, or rely on any other authority to make our point clear, not accepting anything else in the discussion. Our point is made, and since we believe it is the truth, we firmly stand and don't allow any opportunity to simply receive the other person's ideas, suggestions or disagreements.
We may be right concerning the truth we are sharing, but we may be missing the fact that only God's love can make that truth smoothly inserted in the other person's heart. Truth can stay accumulated in people's minds, but that will not transform lives. What resides in our heart is what will definitely change us.
When we open our hearts to love, God's Spirit moves and provides the power needed for transformation. When we are willing to love and forgive, we allow God to move on our behalf and change the negative to the positive. What we thought was impossible becomes possible with God's power.
Choose today to speak love. That's the key to your everyday success.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the opportunity to know the truth through Your Word. I believe Your truth shall set me free, and I ask for Your guidance today. Help me to always be sensitive to other people's needs, and to let Your love fill everything I say, do, and act upon. I thank You for the transformation that is taking place right now because of Your truth, and I praise You for the results. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
29.8.07
wednesday oreadi..
ok.. im falling sick again.. after the lethal black peppery hotplate steak at hougang on sunday nite, slight sore throat on monday to erupted inflammation now. bad bad n no more good food for me for at least one more week! argh!
n today's feeling feverish oreadi. no good sleep coz i tink i woke a few times attempting to vomit coz of the suffocation at the throat. haiz. my stupid bad throat. if today is not wat it is, if not by request, i would be at home lying on my comfy bed in the rainy weather. even though the throat will stil be as disturbing.. but in the aircon here makes it worse!
but im still feeling blessed today becoz.. expected scolding from big shot becoz i unknowingly sat on sometin for too long. for the 2nd time! stupid me. but he didnt.. thank God! Now am praying this wont be picked up by the *you know who* so i wont kena issue. please God, continue to bless me. =)
n today's feeling feverish oreadi. no good sleep coz i tink i woke a few times attempting to vomit coz of the suffocation at the throat. haiz. my stupid bad throat. if today is not wat it is, if not by request, i would be at home lying on my comfy bed in the rainy weather. even though the throat will stil be as disturbing.. but in the aircon here makes it worse!
but im still feeling blessed today becoz.. expected scolding from big shot becoz i unknowingly sat on sometin for too long. for the 2nd time! stupid me. but he didnt.. thank God! Now am praying this wont be picked up by the *you know who* so i wont kena issue. please God, continue to bless me. =)
27.8.07
missing u..
the day has come... n gone.
a mixture of feelings churning inside..
i couldnt imagine the day to come
when i'll have to leave behind the ppl i treasure
my family..my sisters..best buds..n beloved frens..
i might not be able to control my tears anymore..
i muz learn to control my emotions nonetheless..
He says.. learn to wait..be patient.. look up.. and look far..
I'll pray.. we'll be good.
17.8.07
I have this unknown tinge of sadness within. particularly so this week.
each day passes so fast.. weeks gone in a flash..
i feel stupid.and useless sometimes. no matter how small a tin, my little confidence in me gets diminished. n when it happens.. i retreat into darkness. hiding and crying fr within. waiting for the sadness to go away b4 i stand on my feet again. tall. seemingly.
i thank God becoz i have a lot of compassion within. shown or hidden. but sometimes wonder why others dont show as much. mayb i expected too much? it's once again.. reminding myself to wake up to reality. be realistic. be independent. don be too gullible.. don be naive anymore. *slaps*
some days i wake up so tired.. that i wish i can turn back time. but then i think i will make the same decision again. mayb its better if i can fast fwd..but at which stage do i reali wan to be? no answer.. i'll just hav to learn to be happie in the process of living. im blessed nonetheless.
each day passes so fast.. weeks gone in a flash..
i feel stupid.and useless sometimes. no matter how small a tin, my little confidence in me gets diminished. n when it happens.. i retreat into darkness. hiding and crying fr within. waiting for the sadness to go away b4 i stand on my feet again. tall. seemingly.
i thank God becoz i have a lot of compassion within. shown or hidden. but sometimes wonder why others dont show as much. mayb i expected too much? it's once again.. reminding myself to wake up to reality. be realistic. be independent. don be too gullible.. don be naive anymore. *slaps*
some days i wake up so tired.. that i wish i can turn back time. but then i think i will make the same decision again. mayb its better if i can fast fwd..but at which stage do i reali wan to be? no answer.. i'll just hav to learn to be happie in the process of living. im blessed nonetheless.
15.8.07
so...what is it that really matters in your life?
TODAY'S WHISPER: Everything meaningful in life involves a process
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TODAY'S VERSE: Philippians 1:6 [The Message Bible]: "There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Psalm 23
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Today we live in a fast-paced, instantaneous-driven society. We want everything for "yesterday," we consume "fast-foods" and we are dependant more and more on the Internet for fast information at a click of a button. And although some of this progress does have its positive side, it can easily undermine the fact that meaningful things in life do need time to flourish and develop, that life itself is an always-developing process.
Even though our lives might need to maintain a quick pace in many areas, it is highly important that we balance our life through spending quality time and energy on things that do have eternal value. For some things in life are temporary and are only there for our natural life's existence and "maintenance," while other areas --especially our relationships and spiritual journey-- have a far deeper eternal value. The amount of time, energy and resources invested in specific areas will inevitably reflect where our true priorities in life really are.
I encourage you to evaluate your priorities and commit to maintain an eternal-driven lifestlyle. For only those things that do matter in life will never cease. The rest is only temporary.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the gifts of life and time. Help me to focus my energy, life and resources on those eternal-based areas that do matter, always being aware of the process needed for their growth and development. I thank You in advance for completing the work You have already started in me. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: Philippians 1:6 [The Message Bible]: "There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Psalm 23
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Today we live in a fast-paced, instantaneous-driven society. We want everything for "yesterday," we consume "fast-foods" and we are dependant more and more on the Internet for fast information at a click of a button. And although some of this progress does have its positive side, it can easily undermine the fact that meaningful things in life do need time to flourish and develop, that life itself is an always-developing process.
Even though our lives might need to maintain a quick pace in many areas, it is highly important that we balance our life through spending quality time and energy on things that do have eternal value. For some things in life are temporary and are only there for our natural life's existence and "maintenance," while other areas --especially our relationships and spiritual journey-- have a far deeper eternal value. The amount of time, energy and resources invested in specific areas will inevitably reflect where our true priorities in life really are.
I encourage you to evaluate your priorities and commit to maintain an eternal-driven lifestlyle. For only those things that do matter in life will never cease. The rest is only temporary.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the gifts of life and time. Help me to focus my energy, life and resources on those eternal-based areas that do matter, always being aware of the process needed for their growth and development. I thank You in advance for completing the work You have already started in me. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
3.8.07
TGIF again!
TODAY'S WHISPER: What do you seek?
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TODAY'S VERSE: Matthew 6:33
[New International Version]: "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
[The Message Bible]: "Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met."
[Amplified Bible]: "But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides."
[New Living Translation]: "and he will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern."
[Contemporary English Version]: "But more than anything else, put God's work first and do what he wants. Then the other things will be yours as well."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Matthew 6:25-34
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There's an anonymous e-mail message spread all over the world that reads as follows:
"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it."
"Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God."
It is more than obvious that GOD needs to be the main subject in all that happens in our life. Especially during difficult times --trials, tribulations, suffering--, seeking God is the key to finding solutions we really need. Jesus said it clear, "...Seek FIRST [God's] kingdom and [God's] righteousness, and all [those other things you need] will be given to you as well." (caps and brackets added)
Let us not forget that GOD needs to be the center of it all. Before seeking anything else, let's focus on seeking Him first and foremost. Everything else will find its proper place at its proper time.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the privilege You have given me to seek You on a daily basis. Teach me to rely on You over everything else so that my words and actions may be a positive and powerful influence to the world around me. I give You praise for Who you are, and for who I am in You. In Jesus' awesome name, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: Matthew 6:33
[New International Version]: "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
[The Message Bible]: "Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met."
[Amplified Bible]: "But seek (aim at and strive after) first of all His kingdom and His righteousness (His way of doing and being right), and then all these things taken together will be given you besides."
[New Living Translation]: "and he will give you all you need from day to day if you live for him and make the Kingdom of God your primary concern."
[Contemporary English Version]: "But more than anything else, put God's work first and do what he wants. Then the other things will be yours as well."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Matthew 6:25-34
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There's an anonymous e-mail message spread all over the world that reads as follows:
"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it."
"Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God."
It is more than obvious that GOD needs to be the main subject in all that happens in our life. Especially during difficult times --trials, tribulations, suffering--, seeking God is the key to finding solutions we really need. Jesus said it clear, "...Seek FIRST [God's] kingdom and [God's] righteousness, and all [those other things you need] will be given to you as well." (caps and brackets added)
Let us not forget that GOD needs to be the center of it all. Before seeking anything else, let's focus on seeking Him first and foremost. Everything else will find its proper place at its proper time.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the privilege You have given me to seek You on a daily basis. Teach me to rely on You over everything else so that my words and actions may be a positive and powerful influence to the world around me. I give You praise for Who you are, and for who I am in You. In Jesus' awesome name, amen.
27.7.07
25.7.07
I just have to learn this.
TODAY'S WHISPER: In genuine trust there is rest
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TODAY'S VERSE: Proverbs 3:5 [The Message Bible]: "Trust God from the bottom of your heart..."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Proverbs 3:5-18
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Some years ago I had a female cat named Gatyria. In the early days of our co-existence, Gatyria was always seeking a place to hide whenever she heard a vacuum cleaner, a hair blower, a spray, or when visitors stepped into the house. She was always a fearful cat, and with time I got accustomed to this behavior. It was sometimes hillarious to see her going crazy trying to find a hiding spot when one couldn't be found at that very moment. How much I laughed at those times!!
Over the years Gatyria learned to trust me and not act so fearful while I was around. I watched her at times while working on my computer, and she just curled herself right beside me and slept regardless of a printer in process, a fax being received, or phones ringing. Little by little her trust seemed to increase as she realized that I had no intentions to harm her in any way.
This same level of trust is the one we need to develop toward God --our Heavenly Father Who is never after us trying to punish or destroy us. On the contrary, our God is always desiring to be closer to us so we may listen to His heart and find our way into our divinely-prepared annointing and blessing. For God has designed you and me with an eternal purpose, and only He can provide us the keys to unlock the blessings and power that come about when we step into our designed destiny.
This kind of trust can only be developed through a personal relationship with God, which can progressively happen as we read God's Word and pray. When we take the time to be alone with our Heavenly Father and receive guidance through His Word, we find ourselves connected to our true source of energy and rest. And when we leave this sacred space, our hearts, souls and minds --even our physical bodies— feel at rest, at peace. And this is something all of us desperately need on a daily basis --not only to receive peace, but to know God in a deeper and intimate way.
Don't let your day go by without a quiet moment with your Creator. Commit yourself to trust Him in every situation. For leaning on His faithfulness and daily provision will definitely make a difference in your life and those around you... every single day.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your awesome lovingkindess toward me in all circumstances. Thank You for always being there for me and for providing Your Word and prayer as key vehicles to know You. Help me to commit each day to take time to acknowledge Your presence and pray. I rejoice for the awesome blessings that will come as a result of trusting You. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
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TODAY'S VERSE: Proverbs 3:5 [The Message Bible]: "Trust God from the bottom of your heart..."
TODAY'S SCRIPTURE: Proverbs 3:5-18
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Some years ago I had a female cat named Gatyria. In the early days of our co-existence, Gatyria was always seeking a place to hide whenever she heard a vacuum cleaner, a hair blower, a spray, or when visitors stepped into the house. She was always a fearful cat, and with time I got accustomed to this behavior. It was sometimes hillarious to see her going crazy trying to find a hiding spot when one couldn't be found at that very moment. How much I laughed at those times!!
Over the years Gatyria learned to trust me and not act so fearful while I was around. I watched her at times while working on my computer, and she just curled herself right beside me and slept regardless of a printer in process, a fax being received, or phones ringing. Little by little her trust seemed to increase as she realized that I had no intentions to harm her in any way.
This same level of trust is the one we need to develop toward God --our Heavenly Father Who is never after us trying to punish or destroy us. On the contrary, our God is always desiring to be closer to us so we may listen to His heart and find our way into our divinely-prepared annointing and blessing. For God has designed you and me with an eternal purpose, and only He can provide us the keys to unlock the blessings and power that come about when we step into our designed destiny.
This kind of trust can only be developed through a personal relationship with God, which can progressively happen as we read God's Word and pray. When we take the time to be alone with our Heavenly Father and receive guidance through His Word, we find ourselves connected to our true source of energy and rest. And when we leave this sacred space, our hearts, souls and minds --even our physical bodies— feel at rest, at peace. And this is something all of us desperately need on a daily basis --not only to receive peace, but to know God in a deeper and intimate way.
Don't let your day go by without a quiet moment with your Creator. Commit yourself to trust Him in every situation. For leaning on His faithfulness and daily provision will definitely make a difference in your life and those around you... every single day.
-- Brother Abnel
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TODAY'S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your awesome lovingkindess toward me in all circumstances. Thank You for always being there for me and for providing Your Word and prayer as key vehicles to know You. Help me to commit each day to take time to acknowledge Your presence and pray. I rejoice for the awesome blessings that will come as a result of trusting You. In Jesus' precious name, amen.
23.7.07
rants
blessed this birthday. not becoz of the gifts i received. but becoz of the ppl ard me. frenz showering me with love. accompaniment even if it means me initiating askin sistas out to spend time with on the bday's eve. =p im ok with it coz i reali juz wan to spend time with ppl dearest on my special day. thats the oni tin tat makes the day special.n i didnt expect to juz blow a single candle this year.. 2+5 candles isnt alot so i thot i could blow so many candles for the last time! coz after this year i wont wan to announce my age animore.. coz time gonna fly fast after 25. its wierd but so true.n as u get older, gifts r lackin of the surprise factor.. more of the practical stuff. i got a pillow,tee, hairdryer, perfume, adidas jacket, passport holder.. 3/5 are upon request. another 2 are made known b4 the purchase is made.no complains.. i love all of them! n not forgetting the 4 bday cards. i love cards n funny blessings written inside... mayb i shld blog some pics. but damn this laptop doesnt have lanya. argh.nvm.later.
mood swings rather severly again. from a high few weeks ago.. to a super low pit. mostly due to the uncontrollable emotions within. caused partly by work. by wats happenin at home. in my own foreseeable yet uncertain path ahead.i reali hate myself sometimes.i am becomin impatient with myself. my life. mayb i shld juz go to sleep.for good.
mood swings rather severly again. from a high few weeks ago.. to a super low pit. mostly due to the uncontrollable emotions within. caused partly by work. by wats happenin at home. in my own foreseeable yet uncertain path ahead.i reali hate myself sometimes.i am becomin impatient with myself. my life. mayb i shld juz go to sleep.for good.
20.7.07
the knock of reality on my door..
And Im beginning to doubt myself again..
i almost forgot about my main concern..
God..
my family..
myself..
have i been compromising with my own beliefs.. or urs...
promises can be compromised too.
wat's left. doubt. uncertainty. faith in the wrong path.
i cant pacify myself .. my thoughts.. anymore.
i almost forgot about my main concern..
God..
my family..
myself..
have i been compromising with my own beliefs.. or urs...
promises can be compromised too.
wat's left. doubt. uncertainty. faith in the wrong path.
i cant pacify myself .. my thoughts.. anymore.
6.7.07
s3v3n
seven.
the day.
the year.
my month.
triple. our half annvy.
may it be good. as good.
God be with us.
the day.
the year.
my month.
triple. our half annvy.
may it be good. as good.
God be with us.
5.7.07
Don’t look back… Keep looking forward!
July 4th, 2007 - No Responses
TODAY’S VERSE 1: Proverbs 4:25
[New Living Translation]: “Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you.”
TODAY’S VERSE 2: Philippians 3:13b
[New International Version]: “But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead…”
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE: Exodus 16:1-15; Proverbs 4
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I have caught myself saying it on occasions. “Why did I ever do this?” Why didn’t I ever think of that?” “Why did I do this instead of that?” “If I only I would have listened…” “Man! If only I would have…”The truth is plain and clear: yesterday is gone and we can’t do anything about it. What’s done is done. What you and I CAN do now is decide wisely today for a better tomorrow –understanding that God is more than willing (and faithful) to work on our side in whatever circumstances we find ourselves.
During their desert journey to the promised land, the Israelites were always finding a reason to complain and ask these same questions concerning Egypt. And God showed them in many ways how much He loved and cared for them. However, they would only complain and grumble some more, to the extent that God was forced to judge them and let that generation die without ever having access to the promised land.
Let us learn from their example and keep our focus on today and the future God has for us. For whatever we choose to speak and do this very day will ultimately affect our tomorrow –all the way through eternity.
– Brother Abnel
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TODAY’S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for today, a unique and awesome gift we call “the present.” Teach me to value each and every day in such a way that the choices I make be in total agreement with Your plan and purpose for my life. I thank You for the beautiful tomorrow You have set before me, and pray and rejoice with joy and gratitude. In Jesus’ precious name, amen.
July 4th, 2007 - No Responses
TODAY’S VERSE 1: Proverbs 4:25
[New Living Translation]: “Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you.”
TODAY’S VERSE 2: Philippians 3:13b
[New International Version]: “But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead…”
TODAY’S SCRIPTURE: Exodus 16:1-15; Proverbs 4
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I have caught myself saying it on occasions. “Why did I ever do this?” Why didn’t I ever think of that?” “Why did I do this instead of that?” “If I only I would have listened…” “Man! If only I would have…”The truth is plain and clear: yesterday is gone and we can’t do anything about it. What’s done is done. What you and I CAN do now is decide wisely today for a better tomorrow –understanding that God is more than willing (and faithful) to work on our side in whatever circumstances we find ourselves.
During their desert journey to the promised land, the Israelites were always finding a reason to complain and ask these same questions concerning Egypt. And God showed them in many ways how much He loved and cared for them. However, they would only complain and grumble some more, to the extent that God was forced to judge them and let that generation die without ever having access to the promised land.
Let us learn from their example and keep our focus on today and the future God has for us. For whatever we choose to speak and do this very day will ultimately affect our tomorrow –all the way through eternity.
– Brother Abnel
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TODAY’S PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for today, a unique and awesome gift we call “the present.” Teach me to value each and every day in such a way that the choices I make be in total agreement with Your plan and purpose for my life. I thank You for the beautiful tomorrow You have set before me, and pray and rejoice with joy and gratitude. In Jesus’ precious name, amen.
4.7.07
I tink im falling sick soon. Been wakin up these few mornings with a runny nose despite not sleepin with the air-con on. Can feel the sore throat coming too .. esp after bbq at the pig’s sty last nite. Yea it’s a hassle-free kinda bbq .. no charcoal needed. Practically no twist n turning of the chix wings coz the whole tin runs on gas with lava rock and theres a cover to create the ‘steaming’ effect. Everytin gets cooked so easily. Rite? haha .. now just short of tryin out the Jacuzzi. Hopefully soon.
The flowers left in office r beginning to stink. Wat shall I do with them this time.. hmm…
Counting down to the day. The dreadful day I couldn’t even bring myself to prepare for.. nor start thinking abt.. mayb I can postpone thinking abt it till.. mayb after the 15th? Its crazy but I reali hope with the big 25 hittin me I will suddenly become wiser in my life’s decisions.. big n small.. hahaha stupid I know. I juz cant help but hate this growin up phase sometimes..
Nx week’s gonna be on course.. the week after I will probably die in office again rushing my quarterly nightmare thingy. Fuck. Quarter comes so fast. Time flies! Not forgetting my kpi project due in sept. n the many many miscellaneous and admin stuff I hav to f/up on. Why is work always so.. sian? …
fyi i ve updated my wish list.. so don ask me wat i wan for my bday animore ok? but i guess its of not much use coz my wants are usuali the expensive items (i dont know why too)wahahaha
The flowers left in office r beginning to stink. Wat shall I do with them this time.. hmm…
Counting down to the day. The dreadful day I couldn’t even bring myself to prepare for.. nor start thinking abt.. mayb I can postpone thinking abt it till.. mayb after the 15th? Its crazy but I reali hope with the big 25 hittin me I will suddenly become wiser in my life’s decisions.. big n small.. hahaha stupid I know. I juz cant help but hate this growin up phase sometimes..
Nx week’s gonna be on course.. the week after I will probably die in office again rushing my quarterly nightmare thingy. Fuck. Quarter comes so fast. Time flies! Not forgetting my kpi project due in sept. n the many many miscellaneous and admin stuff I hav to f/up on. Why is work always so.. sian? …
fyi i ve updated my wish list.. so don ask me wat i wan for my bday animore ok? but i guess its of not much use coz my wants are usuali the expensive items (i dont know why too)wahahaha
28.6.07
26.6.07
how do we reconcile.......
The Five Love Languages
My primary love languages are probablyQuality Time and Words of Affirmation.
Complete set of results
| Quality Time: | 9 | |
| Words of Affirmation: | 9 | |
| Acts of Service: | 5 | |
| Physical Touch: | 5 | |
| Receiving Gifts: | 2 |
25.6.07
words of abuse.. cause wounds just like how a knife cuts into the skin. bearing a slit on the hand/heart that even when healed, a scar remains.
words said/thrown, can never be taken back like how water spilled can not be gathered back drop by drop
five languages of love.. my top two are quality time and physical touch. though i tink words of affirmation shld be my top. mayb i shld try the test again.
coz more time spent = more disagreements. more 冲突. to be avoided. physical touch/comfort is sometin i wont want to pursue at all. not just for God's sake. its just inherent in me. family upbringing or wateva.
bt words of affirmation is sometin i reali need. most of the times. i tink its becoz of my lack of self confidence. in the tins i do. tats also why i can be so easily influenced by wat others say. opinions matter. esp ppl close to my heart.
Am i on the right path guided by the One above?i can oni keep askin myself tat.
verbal abuse, is not different from any other forms of abuse. it is the last tin i ever wan on earth. not at home, not outside. been thru them. they made me cry like its the end of the world. the small n beautiful world of my own im living in. the world i don wan to grow out of.
did i not cry anymore becoz tears dried up? or isit becoz im juz too weary? the uncertainty ahead already eats up my limited energy level.
loving and kind words lights up your day. gives u hope. boosts ur confidence.
the severe lack of it, or the direct opposite, kills wateva hope tat's in ur heart.
like how a little ger's heart shattered when she got shouted at for breakin a glass, all becoz she was tryin to fetch u sometin to drink? the intention was very well forgotten. or isit realised at all?
words said/thrown, can never be taken back like how water spilled can not be gathered back drop by drop
five languages of love.. my top two are quality time and physical touch. though i tink words of affirmation shld be my top. mayb i shld try the test again.
coz more time spent = more disagreements. more 冲突. to be avoided. physical touch/comfort is sometin i wont want to pursue at all. not just for God's sake. its just inherent in me. family upbringing or wateva.
bt words of affirmation is sometin i reali need. most of the times. i tink its becoz of my lack of self confidence. in the tins i do. tats also why i can be so easily influenced by wat others say. opinions matter. esp ppl close to my heart.
Am i on the right path guided by the One above?i can oni keep askin myself tat.
verbal abuse, is not different from any other forms of abuse. it is the last tin i ever wan on earth. not at home, not outside. been thru them. they made me cry like its the end of the world. the small n beautiful world of my own im living in. the world i don wan to grow out of.
did i not cry anymore becoz tears dried up? or isit becoz im juz too weary? the uncertainty ahead already eats up my limited energy level.
loving and kind words lights up your day. gives u hope. boosts ur confidence.
the severe lack of it, or the direct opposite, kills wateva hope tat's in ur heart.
like how a little ger's heart shattered when she got shouted at for breakin a glass, all becoz she was tryin to fetch u sometin to drink? the intention was very well forgotten. or isit realised at all?
19.6.07
it was a blue monday. as always. on this day it is better not to free my mind up.. not to tink of anitin at all. coz its always negative. i dun know why. anyway its over. hurray!
am too lazy still.. to blog pics.. therefore i seeked the easier option to load some on frenster.. haha..shall not waste time and effort to blog the same pics.. =p
am too lazy still.. to blog pics.. therefore i seeked the easier option to load some on frenster.. haha..shall not waste time and effort to blog the same pics.. =p
15.6.07
13.6.07
11.6.07
loooong monday morning..
as the clockhand ticks away..
the truth's setting in..
i realised im not ready to accept this fact..yet..
thought i was the one who's gamed enuff.. bt seems like im losing my hold..
of the failures(failing?) and success stories ard me..
faith..keeps love alive.withstand all trials.Perseverence.. develops maturity.
it takes two hands to clap.they say, love is like an angel. one has to hold onto the other wing to fly.
i don reali know wats this post about anyway.. my thots's all jumbled up.. in the midst of tryin to make sense of the events soon to come.. n tryin to tune myself back to workin mode. yawnz.
the truth's setting in..
i realised im not ready to accept this fact..yet..
thought i was the one who's gamed enuff.. bt seems like im losing my hold..
of the failures(failing?) and success stories ard me..
faith..keeps love alive.withstand all trials.Perseverence.. develops maturity.
it takes two hands to clap.they say, love is like an angel. one has to hold onto the other wing to fly.
i don reali know wats this post about anyway.. my thots's all jumbled up.. in the midst of tryin to make sense of the events soon to come.. n tryin to tune myself back to workin mode. yawnz.
8.6.07
in the midst of gettin my mood back to work.. decided to post these pics up first while waiting for tw pics to be collated and reduced. 3+gbs for myself n much more for his!
went to the M$ home of my owner(yea i reali do wish she owns me in that hse man!)
living
master
spiral
jacuzzi at the rooftop
bar
n my body's aching badly not from the tw trip... but from playin wii at her hse!!
p/s: theres nothing very wrong with ur other remote la.. to sum up.. our skills r on par considering its my first time playing it wahahaha =p
went to the M$ home of my owner(yea i reali do wish she owns me in that hse man!)
living
master
spiral
jacuzzi at the rooftop
bar
n my body's aching badly not from the tw trip... but from playin wii at her hse!!
p/s: theres nothing very wrong with ur other remote la.. to sum up.. our skills r on par considering its my first time playing it wahahaha =p
23.5.07
complaining mood.
Have spent few days/weeks collating the junk n sending them out of my mailbox so tins can be done while im away from work.. n just when im about to sink into my holiday mood.. mgr has to come n tell me abt the board approval for my major proj. that will probably be one of the biggest component of my KPI this year.. nt that my ye bonus will be any fantabulous, neither will it be very much affected by this coz it’s a Major project that probably wont be completed by sep anyway. But still I feel I shld be responsible enuff to start planning for it b4 I leave for tw trip. (practically on left 1 day) Or at least start tinking abt it. The load in june gonna be bad bad bad coz of those backlog tat im struggling with now, plus more accumulated during these 2 weeks of absence.. plus the proj.. blah blah blah.. how exciting.. hw to banish my post-holiday blues n sink myself into the workload when I come back? and july’s gonna be the quarterly nightmare once again! Can I don come back at all?? Feels like running away yet again! Ah. Haven even went for the trip n im tinking way too much. Shall not make myself miserable tinking abt the workload. Its gonna be fun fun fun!
And its been almost a full 8 mths with the company. I cant believe hw time zoom pass me. it is as loooong as my time in that previous co which was practically like hell everyday.. except those enjoyable times during n after work with the pals. Anyway..wat I can conclude as of now is.. this is way better dan audit. Despite the stress n pressure being real-time.. despite the amount of manual workload n admin.. I guess its reali stil tolerable. At least there isn’t any push factor yet.. (im stil tryin my best to overcome tat quarterly nightmare)..as for pull factors.. nothing’s certain..too many considerations come into play which my puny brain cannot weigh properly.. I can/shall let God lead. I can totally trust in Him.
p/s: for ppl who keep forgetting, im leaving at 1pm fri 25th May.. be back at 11pm tues 5th June. Till then!
And its been almost a full 8 mths with the company. I cant believe hw time zoom pass me. it is as loooong as my time in that previous co which was practically like hell everyday.. except those enjoyable times during n after work with the pals. Anyway..wat I can conclude as of now is.. this is way better dan audit. Despite the stress n pressure being real-time.. despite the amount of manual workload n admin.. I guess its reali stil tolerable. At least there isn’t any push factor yet.. (im stil tryin my best to overcome tat quarterly nightmare)..as for pull factors.. nothing’s certain..too many considerations come into play which my puny brain cannot weigh properly.. I can/shall let God lead. I can totally trust in Him.
p/s: for ppl who keep forgetting, im leaving at 1pm fri 25th May.. be back at 11pm tues 5th June. Till then!
15.5.07
i hope its for the good of it.
this was then.. baskin in the sunlight
and this was last nite.. its first nite in another new environment..wary.scared.
didnt wan to let it out of my arms..
letting me play with its ears..
the emo me almost hav tears falling coz i reali cant bear to leave without it. smuggle in my tee. nobody knows. stupid me.
10.5.07
4.5.07
aftermath..
So many days of not blogging.. particularly becoz.. its all negative tins tat were happening. Call it a series of unfortunate events. Ever since tabby fell down, many other events took place. Consecutively. Not to mention hw much tears were shed as many had witnessed. Im not supposed to blog abt them but one word sums up everytin. Relationship. All kinds. Frenships, kinship, n the word itself literally.or mayb its me. I sucked at managing them.
The conclusion is still the same. That im too negative. (but I stil give thanks for little tins in life. Juz tat I don blog them now. Don express to anyone but God Himself). Too harsh and critical on me n my life. Too imaginative. Painted an idealistic but unrealistic picture of the world im in. how contradicting. How can I be both pessimistic and yet too idealistic at the same time? despite knowin these I stil get myself trapped in my own emotional vicious cycle. Mayb coz I don tink its wrong to feel n tink this way. Cant controlled my feelings. Juz tat I knw the need to get out of it.. but hav no motivation within and around me to.
Tins happen for a reason.im tryin to fathom the underlying meaning behind every event. Learn fr it. Grow up. N learn to face life without much fear. Nor tears.
If there’s this tin called blogging style, dan I’ll change mine fr now on. Coz im supposed to tink and dan write down the good side of every bad tin that occurred. The pig has always offered realistic (sometimes harsh) motivational comments. N all my beloved frens.. who offered comforting words.. even simple words like be strong.. are much appreciated. Not offering enuff tissue is reali a good way to make me stop overflowing. Thanks minz. Hee. N oh ya.. don try to comfort me nx time when im sobbing coz it oni gets worse. Mayb all I need is a physical pat/hug. Yea.
N even the two most dearest..though fighting for bed space with me.. but the physical presence indeed overcame that stupid fear of returning to ur own home. Home sweet home.
Yeah.. 3 wks from now n I’ll be on the plane.. =)
The conclusion is still the same. That im too negative. (but I stil give thanks for little tins in life. Juz tat I don blog them now. Don express to anyone but God Himself). Too harsh and critical on me n my life. Too imaginative. Painted an idealistic but unrealistic picture of the world im in. how contradicting. How can I be both pessimistic and yet too idealistic at the same time? despite knowin these I stil get myself trapped in my own emotional vicious cycle. Mayb coz I don tink its wrong to feel n tink this way. Cant controlled my feelings. Juz tat I knw the need to get out of it.. but hav no motivation within and around me to.
Tins happen for a reason.im tryin to fathom the underlying meaning behind every event. Learn fr it. Grow up. N learn to face life without much fear. Nor tears.
If there’s this tin called blogging style, dan I’ll change mine fr now on. Coz im supposed to tink and dan write down the good side of every bad tin that occurred. The pig has always offered realistic (sometimes harsh) motivational comments. N all my beloved frens.. who offered comforting words.. even simple words like be strong.. are much appreciated. Not offering enuff tissue is reali a good way to make me stop overflowing. Thanks minz. Hee. N oh ya.. don try to comfort me nx time when im sobbing coz it oni gets worse. Mayb all I need is a physical pat/hug. Yea.
N even the two most dearest..though fighting for bed space with me.. but the physical presence indeed overcame that stupid fear of returning to ur own home. Home sweet home.
Yeah.. 3 wks from now n I’ll be on the plane.. =)
24.4.07
when happiness and disappointment co-exist....
how human disappoints...
when can i ever learn ..to not hold any .. any expectations at all?
i shld really learn to disregard the feelings i have deep inside...
time separates. of any kinds of relnships. bondings. friendships.
all i can do is to sulk and lament this sad fact in life.
when can i ever learn ..to not hold any .. any expectations at all?
i shld really learn to disregard the feelings i have deep inside...
time separates. of any kinds of relnships. bondings. friendships.
all i can do is to sulk and lament this sad fact in life.
18.4.07
for the better..
tabby is recovering fast. it is able to land almost every step on that left hind paw now. compared to seriously dragging tat limp leg ard last week. thankfully. well, tears dried up few days after the incident. mood was at rock bottom n it sort of rebounded on its own soon after. also thks to all ard me who cared for me n tabby.. esp kat who immediately smsed me after reading abt it.. all the way fr jpn during her sakura-gazing trip..toking abt sakuras.. seems like everybody's seen it. jpn..korea... when's my turn? hmmp.
bb came over on sun noon juz b4 i went church.. managed to snap few pics..
this week wasnt as bad as expected. didnt hav to OT tat much. v2 stayed with me today to try figure out tat complicating triangular relnship in the conso cashflow..somehw still has some irreconcilable amount which she says will reconcile at her grp's level..ahhh relieved. bt still..feels bad tat i always need her help in work.. hai..
bb came over on sun noon juz b4 i went church.. managed to snap few pics..
im the aunt of them all..
the other day over at bro's hse while on mc..look at his long tongue..
cute expression..
small lil feet
me n bb
classic expression of =p
& this is the frame i made for him/big bro&wife..delay for mths..ha
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