aftermath..

So many days of not blogging.. particularly becoz.. its all negative tins tat were happening. Call it a series of unfortunate events. Ever since tabby fell down, many other events took place. Consecutively. Not to mention hw much tears were shed as many had witnessed. Im not supposed to blog abt them but one word sums up everytin. Relationship. All kinds. Frenships, kinship, n the word itself literally.or mayb its me. I sucked at managing them.

The conclusion is still the same. That im too negative. (but I stil give thanks for little tins in life. Juz tat I don blog them now. Don express to anyone but God Himself). Too harsh and critical on me n my life. Too imaginative. Painted an idealistic but unrealistic picture of the world im in. how contradicting. How can I be both pessimistic and yet too idealistic at the same time? despite knowin these I stil get myself trapped in my own emotional vicious cycle. Mayb coz I don tink its wrong to feel n tink this way. Cant controlled my feelings. Juz tat I knw the need to get out of it.. but hav no motivation within and around me to.

Tins happen for a reason.im tryin to fathom the underlying meaning behind every event. Learn fr it. Grow up. N learn to face life without much fear. Nor tears.

If there’s this tin called blogging style, dan I’ll change mine fr now on. Coz im supposed to tink and dan write down the good side of every bad tin that occurred. The pig has always offered realistic (sometimes harsh) motivational comments. N all my beloved frens.. who offered comforting words.. even simple words like be strong.. are much appreciated. Not offering enuff tissue is reali a good way to make me stop overflowing. Thanks minz. Hee. N oh ya.. don try to comfort me nx time when im sobbing coz it oni gets worse. Mayb all I need is a physical pat/hug. Yea.

N even the two most dearest..though fighting for bed space with me.. but the physical presence indeed overcame that stupid fear of returning to ur own home. Home sweet home.

Yeah.. 3 wks from now n I’ll be on the plane.. =)