the ox year seems to hav mixed 'predictions' for us doggies.. bt so far everytin has been peaceful.
for some doggie it seems that 桃花运 is increasing, or rather, still relatively constant. both new and old, male and female. keeps the tail wagging it seems.
at least some excitement to chase away mundane blues. for a while. or more.
y don i hav someone bumping into me n pouring coffee on my shirt, dan offering to bring me drywash it/shop for new piece..?or bump into my old time crushes and braving up courage to get their hp numbers? both male and/or female? haha.. n hw often does this happen!
24.2.09
now the boss muz think that they've hired a 病猫
second day in this month. n on avg once per mth. n there r days i chose to hang ard the office despite me not feelin well coz of the pymts to be done, n so i hugged my hot water bottle at the abdomen to feel better which, makes the boss laugh. hmm.
n i got sabotaged by the old staff who told me i don hav to produce any MCs coz the boss trust us. but it turned out that the boss is asking fr me now. lucky she nver ask for 2008 ones coz i hav none. n lucky i hav the one in jan. n one for tdy. just missing on last wk's coz i didnt see the doc at all.
so in a short span of abt a mth i've been sick for two times seriously. since the malacca trip. the fever took the whole of this morn n noon to subside. the cold is still there. so is the soreness in the throat. wat exactly is wrong? isit me, or..the environment? coz there r sick ppl in the same roof n viruses spread.
i don remember myself falling sick n getting colds back in winter. mayb its the change in weather here (hot n dan cool) tat makes ppl sick. or isit work tat makes me sick? i tink it might be becoz i dun knw hw to handle my emotions caused by my work that made my body succumb to the weakness in me. argh.
if i ever dont get confirmed this coming mar, i tink i know why.
second day in this month. n on avg once per mth. n there r days i chose to hang ard the office despite me not feelin well coz of the pymts to be done, n so i hugged my hot water bottle at the abdomen to feel better which, makes the boss laugh. hmm.
n i got sabotaged by the old staff who told me i don hav to produce any MCs coz the boss trust us. but it turned out that the boss is asking fr me now. lucky she nver ask for 2008 ones coz i hav none. n lucky i hav the one in jan. n one for tdy. just missing on last wk's coz i didnt see the doc at all.
so in a short span of abt a mth i've been sick for two times seriously. since the malacca trip. the fever took the whole of this morn n noon to subside. the cold is still there. so is the soreness in the throat. wat exactly is wrong? isit me, or..the environment? coz there r sick ppl in the same roof n viruses spread.
i don remember myself falling sick n getting colds back in winter. mayb its the change in weather here (hot n dan cool) tat makes ppl sick. or isit work tat makes me sick? i tink it might be becoz i dun knw hw to handle my emotions caused by my work that made my body succumb to the weakness in me. argh.
if i ever dont get confirmed this coming mar, i tink i know why.
20.2.09
Words
Certain things/words/sentences, are the first to come to mind each day as I awake, i forced them, juz to remind myself so that I can bear them in mind. Such realizations, though they saddens the heart to a certain extent, are much necessary so as to keep myself sane. So the very min when I open my lazy eyes, it is the best timing to reiterate such thoughts before the busyness of the day sets in. tat could be the reason why im becoming more of a pessimist.becoz i forced myself to grab hold of reality, becoz sometimes when u lose certain tins, u seem to lose the meaning of life. too serious? nah.. mayb its jus me to tink this way. lots of room for improvement i know.. someday somehow i'll get there.
Mayb tat is also the reason why I tend to write the same feelings/thots over n over again.
N mayb im not the only one.
We finally caught k20 last nite. The way we used to catch two shows consecutively in a day/nite ten yrs ago. Albeit with a little more guilt. a little more of the heck care attitude at the same time. Tat might be a display of the I-hate-to-grow-up behavior. Just like how I love loitering the streets on a wkday midnite with the buds, eating chips n mag mee late at 3am at my place, not caring abt the worries of tomorrow. Or at least trying not to.
N I tink im expecting too much out of ‘romantic’ movies. Tat I cant feel a tin anymore. or mayb ‘new in town’ is not supposed to be the usual romance n sweetness-filled kind of show. Bt true enough it was simple n still nice to watch esp in a very cold cinema in very short shorts. Very wintery feel. crazy i knw =p
Lucky, I still haven lose the joy of ogling over pretty boys in Taiwanese dramas. Just have to make do with the small screen and not so perfect resolution. ethan sort of sets the ideal picture of the kind of guy i've always dreamt of having. his height (!!!), looks, humour. just damn cute. It is hard to wake up to reality so just let me indulge in them for a little while more.
Friday doesn’t feel like a Friday. Not looking fwd to wkend either becoz I cant help feeling lethargic. Heading out n tiring myself makes me feel worst when Monday comes. Just couldn’t get rid of this feeling.N whateva u feel, ur body reacts the very same way Argh. Ahh!
Mayb tat is also the reason why I tend to write the same feelings/thots over n over again.
N mayb im not the only one.
We finally caught k20 last nite. The way we used to catch two shows consecutively in a day/nite ten yrs ago. Albeit with a little more guilt. a little more of the heck care attitude at the same time. Tat might be a display of the I-hate-to-grow-up behavior. Just like how I love loitering the streets on a wkday midnite with the buds, eating chips n mag mee late at 3am at my place, not caring abt the worries of tomorrow. Or at least trying not to.
N I tink im expecting too much out of ‘romantic’ movies. Tat I cant feel a tin anymore. or mayb ‘new in town’ is not supposed to be the usual romance n sweetness-filled kind of show. Bt true enough it was simple n still nice to watch esp in a very cold cinema in very short shorts. Very wintery feel. crazy i knw =p
Lucky, I still haven lose the joy of ogling over pretty boys in Taiwanese dramas. Just have to make do with the small screen and not so perfect resolution. ethan sort of sets the ideal picture of the kind of guy i've always dreamt of having. his height (!!!), looks, humour. just damn cute. It is hard to wake up to reality so just let me indulge in them for a little while more.
Friday doesn’t feel like a Friday. Not looking fwd to wkend either becoz I cant help feeling lethargic. Heading out n tiring myself makes me feel worst when Monday comes. Just couldn’t get rid of this feeling.N whateva u feel, ur body reacts the very same way Argh. Ahh!
17.2.09
tryin to keep my cool. *breathes in and out real deep*
Today's Whisper
Focus on what you *can* change
Today's Verse: Acts 9:5
"It is dangerous and it will turn out badly for you to keep kicking against the goad [to offer vain and perilous resistance]." -AMP[3]
Today's Message
I'm sure all of us encounter situations and issues in life that we wish were not there or that we could just change according to our way of thinking. Whether in our jobs, family life, ministry, school, or relationships, we tend to "fight" against things imposed upon us, striving to change that which does not conform to our particular preferences and perspective. Unfortunately, trying to change those things that we cannot change often yields the same result as an ox "kicking against the goad:" we get hurt in the process while nothing happens as we desire.
In this new year, I encourage you to focus on the main thing each of us *can* change: ourselves. As we take time each day through quiet time and prayer to acknowledge God's Word and presence in our life, God's Spirit will show us where change really needs to happen while granting us the wisdom and strength needed to accept and live with the unchangeable.
Today's Prayer
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the blessing of life, family, relationships, and Your daily provision. In 2009, help me to accept that which I cannot change while placing my focus on that which I am able to change and use to make a difference in my world. This I pray in Jesus' precious name, amen.
Focus on what you *can* change
Today's Verse: Acts 9:5
"It is dangerous and it will turn out badly for you to keep kicking against the goad [to offer vain and perilous resistance]." -AMP[3]
Today's Message
I'm sure all of us encounter situations and issues in life that we wish were not there or that we could just change according to our way of thinking. Whether in our jobs, family life, ministry, school, or relationships, we tend to "fight" against things imposed upon us, striving to change that which does not conform to our particular preferences and perspective. Unfortunately, trying to change those things that we cannot change often yields the same result as an ox "kicking against the goad:" we get hurt in the process while nothing happens as we desire.
In this new year, I encourage you to focus on the main thing each of us *can* change: ourselves. As we take time each day through quiet time and prayer to acknowledge God's Word and presence in our life, God's Spirit will show us where change really needs to happen while granting us the wisdom and strength needed to accept and live with the unchangeable.
Today's Prayer
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for the blessing of life, family, relationships, and Your daily provision. In 2009, help me to accept that which I cannot change while placing my focus on that which I am able to change and use to make a difference in my world. This I pray in Jesus' precious name, amen.
it feels like a huge rock has fallen off my shoulders.
thanking Him for all my prayers heard. n ppl who prayed for me. inclu the faraway prayer. im sure God hears everytin. still believing.
this morn in my dad's cab i got awaken by his comment while we're turning into bedok. n the min i turn my head i saw a motionless body, covered by the white cloth. 2nd time i see a dead body lying on the side of the road. first was when i was in a fren's car on the way to my stats exam during the uni days. now, i realise i don feel tat much of an impact inside. mayb afterall, seeing old n sick ppl in the hospital pains me much more, esp if it's a loved one suffering right b4 ur very eyes. tat was what i went thru last week. and i always make silly prayers to wan to exchange anytin and everytin fr myself just for her health. hmm.
aniway mon is over. sometin to rejoice abt. indeed tdy feels so much better! n i had a crazy dream of my idol though it irritates me seeing him kiss someone else not me hahaha
n oh, it's mom's bday tdy.. God, please keep her in good health and spirit everyday. that is ALL i can ask for.
thanking Him for all my prayers heard. n ppl who prayed for me. inclu the faraway prayer. im sure God hears everytin. still believing.
this morn in my dad's cab i got awaken by his comment while we're turning into bedok. n the min i turn my head i saw a motionless body, covered by the white cloth. 2nd time i see a dead body lying on the side of the road. first was when i was in a fren's car on the way to my stats exam during the uni days. now, i realise i don feel tat much of an impact inside. mayb afterall, seeing old n sick ppl in the hospital pains me much more, esp if it's a loved one suffering right b4 ur very eyes. tat was what i went thru last week. and i always make silly prayers to wan to exchange anytin and everytin fr myself just for her health. hmm.
aniway mon is over. sometin to rejoice abt. indeed tdy feels so much better! n i had a crazy dream of my idol though it irritates me seeing him kiss someone else not me hahaha
n oh, it's mom's bday tdy.. God, please keep her in good health and spirit everyday. that is ALL i can ask for.
16.2.09
owner-pet trail
in another instance, we had a crazy idea to draw n paint.
it started when i asked to buy a painting. but yet, i don wanna share. coz we don share a hse hw to share a painting?! anyway so the idea came abt to duplicate them coz they're too cute to resist and it's a money-saving way. and taa-daa. it was a fun day =)
ting will be involved in the nx one (when?) n im lookin fwd to it!
15.2.09
malacca
very slow post because laptop was spoilt then, and only got back my memory card like a while ago. n finally got myself into the mood to sit down infront of my lappie. n kena complained that this blog is full of shit n emotions, n none of our happy trips.
so here i go, juz one photo though. im lazy, still.
i love this trip coz of the really laid-back feel. u don hav to hurry ard since there's nothing much to do, juz hanging ard one another, eating, walking, looking, shopping abit .. drinking. of coz, i don hav to tok much, so i like it. becoz the ppl im with are fun enuff n im sure they like it better tat i don try. heart murmur, they used to call it. wateva.
now, hokk will be end of the year, or even 2010. im looking fwd to that.. enuff time to slowly save up =p i miss winter damn lots.
12.2.09
don really know how, and what to say.
don know wat else to pray for. wat to think about. to prepare, or to worry.
i m totally lost when it comes to life and death. death, in particular. i m stuck in btw believing there is a heaven to go to when i really die, and..will God really accept me there? also, will i even know about it?n wat abt her?
we cant do anytin abt death.. so, life it wld be. i need to live my life fruitfully. cherish every min when i m still healthy, without illness, able to walk, breathe and be happy. even if i canot help others, i still wanna make my life complete and beautiful. loving and giving, receiving and loved. cherished. selfish eh?
we r born alone, we also die alone. but in between, we must have love n companionship. life is hard enough, why be suffering alone when .. we can share both joy n sorrows?multiply the former, divide the latter.
meanwhile, i still donoe wat i can do now. wat to pray. wat to wish. Jesus, please have mercy. grant recovery and health. its all i ask for. or,juz peace. n pain-free.
don know wat else to pray for. wat to think about. to prepare, or to worry.
i m totally lost when it comes to life and death. death, in particular. i m stuck in btw believing there is a heaven to go to when i really die, and..will God really accept me there? also, will i even know about it?n wat abt her?
we cant do anytin abt death.. so, life it wld be. i need to live my life fruitfully. cherish every min when i m still healthy, without illness, able to walk, breathe and be happy. even if i canot help others, i still wanna make my life complete and beautiful. loving and giving, receiving and loved. cherished. selfish eh?
we r born alone, we also die alone. but in between, we must have love n companionship. life is hard enough, why be suffering alone when .. we can share both joy n sorrows?multiply the former, divide the latter.
meanwhile, i still donoe wat i can do now. wat to pray. wat to wish. Jesus, please have mercy. grant recovery and health. its all i ask for. or,juz peace. n pain-free.
9.2.09
urge
i always feel an urge to change my life.
be it, outside or.. within.
esp so when i see or feel a certain way twds situations/things/ppl.
but most of the times i cant really decipher what i really wan/need to change.
n most importantly, how and what i shld go abt doing it/them.
this post is just another example of myself getting nowhere, with oni more qns generating in my head abt the how and what i wanna change abt me/my life.
argh.
but i still feel that strong urge to wanna change sometin, at least sometin that comes from within the heart. n not leave things to luck/fate/or wait. hmm.
be it, outside or.. within.
esp so when i see or feel a certain way twds situations/things/ppl.
but most of the times i cant really decipher what i really wan/need to change.
n most importantly, how and what i shld go abt doing it/them.
this post is just another example of myself getting nowhere, with oni more qns generating in my head abt the how and what i wanna change abt me/my life.
argh.
but i still feel that strong urge to wanna change sometin, at least sometin that comes from within the heart. n not leave things to luck/fate/or wait. hmm.
1.2.09
cny eve
reunion was a quick affair. afterwhich i escaped to vivo for a good two hours or so alone.. mainly in page one reading mags till it closes at abt ten. and sat down in the open area to wait..
green tea soy latte.. i tink it was fantastic. a hot drink for a cold nite .. very good company.
dan he came.. we starting taking silly pics.. this a nice one in my cam
and more.. the tunnel is nice for pics coz of the 'stars' inside.
n dan the other came to pick us up late after midnite..settled for these at the foresty amk mac.. outdoor ambience is as good as those pubs
very nice hot choco by sight not by taste though..
erm.. can i have all the pics from all your cameras..now that my laptop is 'new' and working perfectly? backdate to malacca.. n way before that... hmmm..
green tea soy latte.. i tink it was fantastic. a hot drink for a cold nite .. very good company.
dan he came.. we starting taking silly pics.. this a nice one in my cam
and more.. the tunnel is nice for pics coz of the 'stars' inside.
n dan the other came to pick us up late after midnite..settled for these at the foresty amk mac.. outdoor ambience is as good as those pubs
very nice hot choco by sight not by taste though..
erm.. can i have all the pics from all your cameras..now that my laptop is 'new' and working perfectly? backdate to malacca.. n way before that... hmmm..
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