tink i slept too much. from 11 last nite till 12 today. same tin for tuesday. so this week was a sleeping week. n wierd dream i had last nite.

muz be the packing of stuff in the office on thurs. straight after lunch we started finishing up, packin everything into boxes. packed the current files. more old files discovered last minute. stationeries which i hav juz put inside the drawers less dan a mth ago. dustbins even. labelled our desktops. chairs. brought our laptops home. could hav gone home by 4plus 5 but becoz we didnt know hw to dismantle the bloomberg terminal.. we waited for the 'experts' to come.. but end up.. i tink we'll still hav trouble loggin on to it on monday becoz of some stupid fool. damn. to tink of the shit loads of stuff to unpack come monday... arghhh.. but like wat v2 says.. why bother tinking of monday's worries. wkends shld be spent carefreely. yea. let monday worry for itself.

aniwae after dinner juz now i was forced to go vivocity. its huge. damn huge. makes u feel like u're in some mall in msia or whereva. at least there's a mall with a 'new' feel here in singapore.. bt soon it will be gone when we all realise its juz another mall. but one tin i like is the rooftop area.. its open air.. lots of couples sit along the steps, view opposite is the bridge to sentosa.. star cruise beside, cable cars in view when there's no haze.. there's oso a huge pool not meant for swimming i tink.. coz its shallow n ppl juz dip their legs in while sitting n chattin away under the dark sky n a not-so-bright moon. its been some time since i last seen any stars..

saw a cute little sometin that i thot i could get. bt i harden my heart n told myself not to. no no. dont.

We all choose what kind of life we want to lead..

Nobody can force us to do the things we don��t want to..

But the reality is often not like that.

Yet still, your life is in your own hands. How it want to spend your everyday, who you want to spend it with.. how much time you want to spend with your family and friends..or simply just doing the things that you enjoy to do.. having a quiet moment of peace somewhere.. whispering a soft prayer to the Lord.

Mental relaxation is important. I��m learning to incorporate that into my daily life. To have some self-realisation. To take in a breath deeply and giving thanks for even being able to breathe this one, now.

More than a year ago, I chose to leave that kind of corporate world. Where you don��t get to see day and night. My earliest days are 8 to 9plus in the night, whereby they��re not so early because by the time you reach home, it��s already 10plus .. too late for a late dinner. The rest of the night spent infront of the cpu catching up with friends. Not much time spent with the family.

Life��s so much better in the second firm. Regular working hours�� a big plus. Minus the work environment. And the culture. Flew to Europe. Made good friends. Everyday after work is time spent with friends. Dinner with family. Even jogs and strolls with mom and the kids.

Yet, I chose to leave. Because work still sucks. Literally sucking up my energy and motivation to work. Nobody understands your job scope other than those in the same shit. Ignorant people just tell you that a job��s a job and to accept it. They think you��re just whining away and refusing to grow up. I don��t particularly have a dream. But I do wish to get out of the corporate world entirely. Used to think this way, and firmly believed in myself then. But once again, the harsh realities of the money-driven world made me succumb to it again. Ok, maybe I am just like any other being. Materialistic.

So here I am, still stuck in an office environment. But still, too early to comment and conclude on it.

At least, working hours are regular. Workplace maybe a little far. Tiredness will increase. I may get bored of it soon again. But just as long as I don��t hate doing it, or the ppl here, I will hang on for as long as I can. *Keeping fingers crossed*

In short, life is cruel. Life is true. Be true and good to yourself. Money is important but don��t succumb to the world��s desires. Like I always say, if I earn less, I buy less. Nobody can force you to do something that you don��t like or want to. Nobody��s tied down to an organization, or a particular lifestyle, unless YOU allow it. Think it through.

So, what are your priorities today?

Work? Family? Friends? Love? Or Self?

It still good to love yourself a little more than your job and your money.

I wan to go on another holiday... i miss getaways... i miss my europe trip.. bangkok... hongkong...taiwan....i wanna go to japan!!!

This is a simple love song..
A song abt simple love
My view of how love should be.. so simple
My simplistic view of how simple love should/can be..

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its a sunday. days n weeks gone past like tat. duno why im feelin ultra bored n sianz today.

practicalli slept away my sat. oni alive at nite becoz its leehom's concert!! well.. it could hav been better if we can get the $168 seats!(darn roy) oh overall, i tink the atmosphere was quite high oreadi for singapore's standard. yea it has improved compared to 4 yrs ago.. at least now we can stand all we wan n even snap away coz the security is less strict. bt of coz.. it stil cant be compared to that in hk.. nor the taipei one. coz our stage here is way too small n uninteresting.. so he seems abit inactive ..

ok im bored today not becoz i hav to work 2mr n two freaking others don hav to. one has got 3 days off till wed.. im stil blessed coz its juz a 3 day week for me.. friday's off coz office has to move. it gonna be a cut hair day for me if i can get my butt out of the hse..

hav not been updating this blog becoz i don wan to blog abt feelings here. it wil juz be a 'wat i've been up to' and 'where i've gone to' kinda blog. so don ask why i didnt update. becoz nothing's interesting these days.

juz to sum things up, this year has gone fast. nothing's changed in me. bt the environment ard me changes like crazy. ppl changed, feelings changed, mindsets' influenced and lifestyle differences enlarges. distance btw ppl lengthens. love fades away.

n i hav decided since.. to let go. to accept. to open my heart. be it love, pain, happiness or watnot, come n take me away............

but i am not compromising my own values for the world's.

decided to blog abit abt my new job. since most of u are interested to know wats happenin to me in the new environment. reali too fast to decide if i like it or not. so i cant giv a definite ans too. so.. shall try to list some tins tat i am thankful abt..

1) fact that i can leave hse at 725 n reach office at 8am. freaking! coz i can hitch a ride fr big bro! thats the blardy diff btw havin a car n not! bt aniway office's moving real soon. long bus/train journey ahead!

2) reali glad i hav v2 ard. she has always been patient n kind. willing to teach. n can tolerate my.. erm.. rather slack n lazy attitute. ok im tryin to change tat. at least appear more enthu. i tink her presence is the major reason for me to stay positive n rejoice.

3) there's free coffee made by the tea-lady everymorning..

4) heard that banks do give us free tics to plays n stuff. juz went for one on wed.. not bad.. get free food n wine..not cheapskate though but its good experience. though couldnt reali fit in well.hee.

5) laptop's cool. despite the super small screen. bt its ok coz i use the pc monitor mostly. don wanna strain my eyes unless i've no choice.

6) discovered there are 2 cat-lovers in office. one more in tpy. seldom do i find ppl who r crazier in cats dan i do... real cats... fact that i've no experience in rearing a pet cat.. hmm mayb i shall pick up some pointers fr them soon. im simply jealous abt the fact that they n their husbands love those cats at hm n can hav their company... *envious* im sure cats r cooler dan kids. =p

7) heard that my mgr is not-tooo-bad. hav yet to verify tat personally..but soon i guess. juz hope not to cok tins up coz she can be quite loud sometimes.. oh God bless me...

8) work's quite.. overwhelming..mayb its juz the first wk.. bt well.. the job responsibilities aren't alot compared to wat v2 is doing.. but still.. coz its totali new to me.. so.. i shall give myself more time to learn.. bt needa learn fast. first, gona learn to be more organised n systematic coz the tins r like everywhere.. n tasks r also.. continuous n flying ard.. gee. gimme more time..n determination. ahh.

n i cant tink animore. dead beat tired. guess im gonna head hm to slp after 2mr's wine n cheese tingy in office. yawnzzz.

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