What we don't understand now we'll understand later..

Today's Verse: John 13:7

"...You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." --NIV[1]

As humans with very limited understanding, we cannot always comprehend why things happen, or why we feel that God is asking us to decide in a way contrary to our own feelings and desires. Even after all the extra-mile efforts placed into our goals, dreams, and even relationships, we recognize that something is missing, that somehow the road we are following is not the best one. And then we are challenged to be courageous enough to make the decision to take a different non-planned route that, deep inside our souls we see is the right one, but we keep dreading due to our fears of rejection, ridicule, and others not being able to understand and agree with us.

However, God -Who has no time restraints and clearly knows our past, present and future- always knows what is best for His children, and with time He will make our eyes clearly see what we cannot see now. That is why we need to continue trusting that He is Who He is, and that our future will be brighter and more secure when we choose to follow His lead.

In Jesus' name I'll keep trusting.

hanging on

we finally managed to check out sengkang on our bikes ytd after the last cardio lesson. after much coaxing and pushing n forcing. ha. the further part of sk is really different. with the new sports complex and the huge n fanciful pool, the new bridge which leads to a fairly huge park with not much amenities other than the very steep slopes, the little bridge that goes across the river fr behind the sports complex to the other side of the park.. we seem to be in a different part of sg. shall return with a proper camera under a not-so-scorching sun. n many more places to explore i hope.

sundays for free up for now.. sat jap lessons are energy consuming. i cant find time to revise at all on wkdays other than dedicating a nite for doing the homework. =p work zaps up my limited physical n mental strength.

..foresees the next 3 days of OT.. becoz of the additional shitty country to review. argh.

lookin fwd to long weekend. the cycling trip. rest. sleep. n most of all, the end of the mth end work. boo.

determination

is necessary in almost every aspects of life, such as...

.. to love or not love someone,

.. to save up, keepin to a budget, less late nights, less drinks, less cabs..etc

.. to keep fit, become lean/less fat, watever u call it

.. to clear that bursting n pathetically small wardrobe

.. to keep upbeat and positive abt the job

all are extremely hard. time is the common factor. n it is ticking away.

on away mode

U knw u hav succeeded when u can stop trying to not tink abt it.

Like a wiper in the head always ready to wipe it away at the soonest possible whenever it pops up in the mind. after some time it becomes automatic.

So/but, have i?

introducing my other love... TaaDaa

After Theo, now comes Emily, the cutie pie with the butterfly.


I wanted to stop at one, since Theo is my fav. But bin n boon insisted to get me my 2nd fav so... thanks v muchie MUACKXXX

There is an animation on this series of crystals! Kawaii! Emily, the butterfly-chasing kitty, Diane the hao-lian lookin cat (atas coz its the most exp!), Camille the sleepy yet greedy cat, Theo the mouse-chasing playful kitty, and last but not least, Marie and Pierre, the sweetest cat couple!

House of Cats from Courtland Lomax on Vimeo.

happie birthday to me

i haven blogged in a while. indeed.

not that there weren't any ups n downs. in fact, there were. downs and downs. mainly at work n not worth mentioning. boo.

ups would be the lovely treats i get for my bday. i love july more than any other mth, and way more than the younger years. this is what ppl mean by money can buy 快乐 though not 幸福. yea im talking about good food. not that i don like gifts when i was younger, or now. but free good food makes u feel even better hehe

free flow.. been gg for quite a few of these (juz taggin along most of the times),checkin out clubs, n waitin for ppl to check me out.hahaha.

starting jap 2mr again, i miss those free wkends whereby there're no agenda or schedule. bt i muz admit i did not make full use of them coz they're so many tins at home tat i wanna do but didnt..

wkdays,wkends, i've been gg out. i don knw why. i m becoming who i am not before. mayb i am avoiding time alone tinking rubbish thots in my room.

nevertheless, cheers to 27. n not counting...