it's juz.. all my fault. period.

on the very same day in the morning..

when it can still stand on both its hind legs, ready to pounce.

it pains my heart to see it limping ard..

the mere thought of it being lame for life.. brings tears to my eyes..

i know im a loser. im not a good enuff owner. did i reali save its life in the first place? i couldnt even manage to fight for its peace at home. couldnt protect it from the kid's bullying. couldnt protect it by meshing up ALL the windows. partly due to procrastination. partly due to their objections. now tat this had happened. its all too late. will tabby even have a chance to jump onto the windows again? ...

how do i stop my tears from flowing..............i can only feel guilt n heartache.

how can life return to normal for me... for tabby.. sobz