how shld i feel when these few days i logged into facebook and the news feed are all about him. his photos. lots of them. n even comments/tags for almost every pic of him n the ger. can anione tell me how i shld or shld not feel?

coz i reali don feel good about it. it doesnt matter animore even if the ger's already attached. according to irene.

im feeling this way (use the word starting with 'j' if u like) not becoz its a ger beside him. but becoz im not there at those fantastic-looking places touring ard. becoz im missing london like crazy though im not missing him. becoz i am juz not feeling good at home now. ( i knw having a job doesnt make tins better, but somehow not having one is making me grow impatient with myself n everyone)

if anyone, anyone of u at all who can understand me.. pls tell me to delete him fr my facebook so i wont hav to face these anymore. but for those who dont, juz shut up. i don need to hear more.

i know i left him on my own accord. left my previous job for him partially. brought all these to myself. in fact sometimes when i accidentally come across our photos (lots lying ard in my room somewhere in a corner in my cupboards), i don know how tins suddenly became totally wrong btw us. not juz the feeling's gone (if u all ever agree there was a presence of 'feel' in the first place), but the feeling's gone BAD. cant get any worst. n dan i hav to tink n recall back.. n reinforce them in my head so that i can be at peace with myself.

i guess this is my first post about my feelings deep within on this blog. now tat i've locked it up. i can safely tok abt feelings(which i initially hav no intention to anymore n tats y its turning into a 'biblical' blog). if any of u are interested in reading them at all.

i wan to go away. i need to go away. i hate being home. but how?...