i had my crabs.

i sang.

i taught.

i church-ed.

what else am i missing this weekend? it's already so much more occupied dan all the other weekends since dunowhen.

why do i still feel so left out in the world, so lost, so lonely?

Is it really because my 爹 and 娘 are both out of town, up on the casino hilltop.. and tat's making me feel so alone in the world?? crap.

this is one of those times i feel i need a certain someone in my life. someone who has to be there for me when i hav none. obligated to be, that is.