we've already forgotten.
too many days of the weak feeling. still zero appetite. n however little i eat, the fullness dont go away. slept alot throughout the weekend..making up for the not-so-good sleep through the week. the way the body is feeling just makes me want to run away more.. from the daily routines.. the mundane life.. job.. and everything that im experiencing. not to mention the very lonely feeling at home..whether or not there is the human presence. yea i know i am not really alone when i am in Him.. but you know, sometimes it's just the physical feeling.. ok i have frenz as well.. but well..
alright, im just grumbling. i know i already have a very nice roomie/landlord who washes n folds my clothes..change my bedsheets when i was away.. shares his groceries.. and help me to finish mine when i cant.. and whenever he is away i get to enjoy the whole house.. minus cleaning the pets n suffocating myself with their fur.. gosh. blessings indeed. that when i dont have my own home yet, that when i dont stay with the family anymore, i still have here... n God watching over me.
today's sermon on addiction. I think my biggest addiction now is to/in my comfort zone. ultimate nua-ness. OMG. and the harder you try to get out of it, the more you sink into it. and so, rest and be still. know that it is already finished, and done. a lil ironic though.. to be at peace but yet not in the state of being nua.. hmmm..
simple blessings to remember.. and keep on moving ahead..
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