shan called for an impromptu free movie called 'john tucker must die'. n off the cineleisure i went. the title sounds childish n lame. but the comedy was good enuff to make me laugh like nobody's biz. chick flick or teenagers' kinda high school romance show. the guy is cute anyway, has great bod, n started the trend of wearing G-strings! who's the man!

straight after i received news tat the ex has an online biz n stall cart in the mall. well well, right after the movie n toilet break, i simply glanced over the nearby stall cart n bingoed. i saw tat familiar face behind the cart. first reaction was to siam n i was glad his view was dan blocked by impending customers. fuck i thot. why the hell did my heart thumped so loud at tat instance. all the while its him who's playin the hide-and-i-don-wan-to-see-you game. n i've been beggin to keep the frenship. b4 i went away on the escapade, i was stil feelin jittery, afraid tat the place will bring back lots of memories, good n bad. even wanted to meet him up badly n i don know why. but along with the memories as i stroll down the familiar streets oso came a realisation. that i don miss tat hand animore. i guess its more of, missing the feelin of a hand, holding mine down the road, along the streets, shoppin in the malls..

i seriously hav no idea why i don dare to walk up to him to say hi. n why shld i even bother? he is out of my life since 2 yrs ago. i reali shldnt bother.

of people who doesnt bother to keep the frenship becoz they couldnt control their emotions, i reali shld learn to let go. im appreciative tat you were once part of my life, as a partner, or even juz a fren.